I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have physically or verbally attacked someone because they threatened my own delusions of being transgender. Whether it was a truth-teller or hate driven, there was a deep rooted fear in walking away from the only "community", the only "family", the only "security" I had ever known up to that point.
Growing up I knew I was same-sex attracted, but I also recognized (even as a young child) the stigma that lingered over being gay. There was a guilt, shame and condemnation that came from culture, society and even the church. Isn't it something how an entire population of people (homosexuals) can be singled out and threatened by people that are sickened by or prejudice of them? Oh wait, that has happened many times in history but we don't consider it the same thing when it comes to same-sex attracted individuals.
I ran away at 14 years old and lived on the streets of Philadelphia. I prostituted my body to survive and quite simply because I had been sexualized as a child which caused me to become a sex addict. I was also taking female hormones and finding myself in & out of juvenile detention, and later adult facilities as well. When I took to the streets it was the lgbTQia Rainbow Cult that took me in, embraced me, fed me, taught me how to survive on the streets and brainwashed me. This movement became every aspect of my entire life; it determined where I lived, where I went to hang out, where I shopped, all of my friends, my politics, and this movement even determined which of my own blood would talk to me or not. That rainbow was a powerful sigil/sign/symbol.
Like most cults, the rainbow movement enveloped me and taught me that anyone that disagrees with me is a threat and they need to be silenced. Ever notice how angry and emotionally driven those that support the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Gender Cult are? Because their entire identity is driven by thoughts, feelings & deception. When someone told me I was a man, I would attack. When someone offered to get me away from that life I knew, I would attack. When someone said a derogatory word about "my community", I would attack. Sometimes it was a verbal attack, but mostly they were physical ones.
The 1st thing I learned on those streets was by an older transgender that told me, "never waste your time fighting cause you might lose. Just cut them, and go for the face or throat when you do." That was my introduction to the "if you wanna survive" lessons. But I remember the 1st time I did actually cut someone, to this day 35 years later it still haunts me because it scared me, sickened me and changed me. I was on the subway with a very flamboyant gay friend and there were two young guys also on the train that were mocking & taunting him with ignorance and derogatory words.
My friend told them to "stfu", which caused them to come over to where we were standing. One of them said something like, "only whores hang out with faggots" and that made me tell them I was a man too. That escalated things and one of them got in my face. I had a razor in my hand and before he hit me I swung the razor. I will never forget how I thought I missed at first, but when I raised the razor to swing again I saw something I'd never imagined before; his face opened up and began bleeding. I was scared, disgusted and on my way to becoming a very different person.
I don't usually tell the details of these types of situations when telling my own story, but sometimes these details are needed for a more in-depth understanding of what we see happening today in abundance. I understand why these emotionally driven people (like TRAs) act and react the way that they do and so I find myself able to deal with them in different ways. Nobody is the same, and so you cannot always deal with the next one the way you did the last one. But you can at least understand that the individuals trapped in the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult really are victims, even the ones that are victimizing others.
I am not making excuses for them, nor am I excusing ANY of their behavior. I am simply offering a more in-depth understanding of why there is so much anger, frustration, angst, hatred and emotionally driven responses. I was wrong for all that I've done to others just because they didn't understand, but I wonder how many of my victims understood that I was a victim as well.
There is a victim mentality that is just as encouraged & promoted as the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult's deceptions on gender, education, love, community, religion, sex and so on. This cult is the largest most deadliest mass of political wickedness we have ever seen, and it has gained more momentum in the last 5 years than ever before.
While I understand my faults and even though I fell for the trans deceptions for 20+ years, I now know my worth as an individual and that I can be a gay man that is not associated or enveloped by the Rainbow of Shame "community" or its political agendas, false identities and sexualization. There really is Peace, Joy and Happiness found outside of that cult. I am a gay man that dissociated from self out of fear of being same-sex attracted and other underlying issues.
Being deceived is built on the false foundation of thoughts & feelings. It is being emotionally driven in fear and rage. Being trapped in this false identity of transgenderism is one of the most dangerous places to dwell. I am not asking anyone to give anyone else a free pass just because they're a victim or deceived, but just be mindful of who and what you are really dealing with when you decide to confront this movement or any of its minions.
Many that are marching for and demanding extra/special rights now are also victims of serious crimes and have serious mental disorders like dysphoria, Autogynephilia, pedophilia, rape, internalized homophobia, sexual trauma, personality disorder, depression, suicidal tendencies, self hatred, PTSD and so on and so on...
Keep Pressing On. Stand Up & Speak Out. Tell Truth. Be Firm.
Just Remember... I was once one of those unhinged crazy TRAs... BEFORE I embraced my true identity and accepted myself for who and what I am.