I had never realized that I had a problem with pornography in my past, but I have now come to see its power in my life and recognize it as a way the devil can trick me and lure me right into sin with lust, fantasy, temptation, and sexual sin. I only have to look at one perverted image. Then I start sexualizing others and thinking of them as objects to be lusted after, and eventually, the devil takes me ever further. I begin thinking of horrible things, deep and dark sexual things that disgust me!
YAHWEH, GOD Almighty, is at work in my life, but I have to be also. I was waiting, for 11 years, to be Free, totally and utterly Free from something without even understanding what it truly was, and that is where I’ve been off track.
There are some things that we will not be totally and utterly Free from. We keep seeking Freedom from things that we are being told are strongholds or “thorns in our flesh” while HIS Word commands us to Trust HIM and to Obey HIM! And if we would just read it, study it, and absorb it for ourselves then we would understand that we too have been deceived by those who have been misled and we are attempting to deny our design thinking we are denying self. HIS Grace really is sufficient!
Something that has been on my heart lately, especially after dealing with some attacks and “thorns”. Many of us want to take our issues to the altar and be done with them. Well, sometimes, your issues are just that, yours!
I grouped my homosexuality in with all of the other wickedness that the lgbtqia+ cult represents, promotes and celebrates. And when I did that, I denied my own design and tried to believe what The Church was telling me about homosexuality being sin and an abomination. In this process I began looking more in-depth at HIS Word.
I found that same-sex attraction or same-sex relationships were never condemned in Scripture. Never! Yes, there were some passages that specified some same-sex sex acts that were condemned but there were also some opposite-sex sex acts that were condemned as well. That alone told me that same-sex attraction wasn't as taboo back then.
The Word is Alive and that Living Word revealed to me that being same-sex attracted is just the way some people are. It is their design. That Living Word also revealed to me that being opposite-sex attracted is just the way some people are as well. Get over it.
We can be healed of oppression, possession, sickness, and our old sinful nature can be washed away. We will also be faced with temptation, persecution, struggle and opposition. We just will.
What makes us think that we should not be comparing ourselves to all of the men and women of GOD in Scripture? Paul said, “I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for The Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.” (2 Cor. 12:10).
What makes us any different from Paul? Why would we be free from persecution? Why would we be free from all temptation, struggle and opposition while all through the Scriptures HIS People that were called by HIS Name suffered these things? Should we not be Joyful with the struggles that we have because we do know how to control them….. by walking “in The SPIRIT.” (Gal. 5:16).
As a man that is same-sex attracted I have the same struggles as a man that is opposite sex attracted. I have to face the same visual struggles with lust as any other man, or woman! I have to know when to turn my head and take the thoughts captive, and surrender them to GOD Almighty, to avoid the sin of lust. Just like anyone else!
The problem is that many of us think that if we surrender to GOD Almighty and walk "in The Spirit" that all of our struggles will go away. Why would we think that? Just because I have embraced my same-sex attraction doesn't mean that I will not struggle with lust, or any other temptation.
Can I suggest that we stop focusing on getting rid of our struggles, and that we own them! It is only if we walk in The SPIRIT that we have the Strength to control those temptations. We “cannot do the things that we would” if we allow The HOLY SPIRIT to guide us and lead us in all that we do.
When temptation and struggle comes, and it is gonna come, then we can be safe, content and secure knowing that we will struggle but we don’t have to struggle with the struggle because we have a Power within us that can bare those burdens and grant us Strength in our weakness to press through, push through, pray through, get through and Breakthrough!!! HalleluYAH! Make no mistakes, we will suffer, but oh the pleasures of suffering for HIS Sake!
I have fallen short at times in my walk, but YAHWEH, GOD Almighty, keeps picking me up and setting my feet on firmer and higher ground.
I can see growth in my life which I know has come from HIS Guidance and not from myself. The FATHER has given me the Courage to face, accept and embrace who I truly am. HE is showing me who HE Created me to be and what my own innate design is. Life isn't about me, me, me anymore. It's about dying to self, and coming alive in YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, and I'm learning how to live that way.
HE has given me so much Freedom in the last 6 months that has strengthened my walk, my Faith and my love for others. This has also strengthened my desire to get out and do ministry, giving others comfort and peace when it comes to their own struggles... helping them identify what their design is vs their struggles.
Thank YOU, YAHWEH, that YOU rescued me at Calvary and are enabling me to enter into that Freedom daily. Please forgive me when I fall short. Please grant that I will never stop walking the path YOU have laid out for me. And please deliver me from sin and self, and teach me to Love in obedience. Thank YOU for the ability to understand my design and to Strength to embrace that and the Courage to face the Church with this discovery and Truth (regardless of how it is received). And may the Love for others dominate my life from this day forth and forever more. I Love YOU FATHER. I Pray to YOU in The Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
Reading Colossians 1:1-14 & Galatians 5…