Maybe as children they were only loved when they pleased and were pushed away when they were not pleasing. Desperately trying to be the best little boy or girl in the world, but somehow not getting a hold of the Love that was conditioned on performance. Growing up hungering for Love, but never finding it, never keeping it, until giving up in bitterness, fearing further disappointment and rejection, and said, "Love is only an illusion, a delusion!"
Well, some of us did not give up, but became compulsive pleasers, ready to do anything for anyone who said they would Love us. This made some of us vulnerable to sexual abuse when we were young. The abuser said he or she would Love us, we did what they wanted, despite knowing intuitively something was wrong, and then, they disappeared. Others were not exploited until they were older, but the result was the same. In time, giving up on Love, settling for the empty husk of sex, condemning self to a life without real Love. For years we wandered alone, without Hope.
Then we hear that GOD is Love. We are afraid to Believe it. We feel we cannot face one more disappointment. We dread the pain of being disillusioned again. We draw back and put up our wall. And yet, by GOD’S Grace, something stirs in our hearts. We sense that this is somehow different, and it is our last chance, our only escape from the dark pit into which we have fallen, our only way out of the cesspools of this world that we have become so comfortable in. And so, looking to our GOD, JESUS CHRIST, focusing on HIS sacrifice for our sins, we press on into the Love of GOD. It does not disappoint! At last, we have found Love, True and Pure Love, because Love has found us! I Belong, Amen!!
Dear FATHER of Lights, I admit I am afraid of one more disheartening letdown. Please LORD, be patient with me as I try to learn to trust YOUR Love. Bear with my hesitation. Help me to remember that YOU have demonstrated YOUR Love in deed at Calvary, and to see that, YOUR deed proves it is safe to trust YOU. The others gave me only tempting but false promises; YOU gave YOURSELF. YOU are Real! And I Thank YOU, LORD JESUS, for all of the many Blessings YOU so generously pour out upon each one of us on a daily basis. I Praise YOU and Glorify YOU. Oh LORD JESUS, I Pray to YOU in YOUR Mighty and Powerful Name. Amen.
Reading John 16:1-33 this morning….