One reason making amends is so important is that it helps us break through the denial which may still be keeping us in the dark about our true selves. When we confess to GOD, we may not fully face the sin in our heart. When we confess to ourselves, we may still be hiding many things that we don’t really have to confront. But when we confess to another human being, our own blindness makes what we say the Truth, the whole Truth, and nothing but the Truth.
For example, I used to make it a point to state that I was only guilty of luring in, and seducing, teenage boys because the admission of just being a pedophile was too much for me, seemed to be something I didn’t want to face because I couldn’t be that monster, or could I!??!!!? Although I was never drawn to little children I did lure in/seduce/recruit some teenagers and so the very first battle for me was to admit that I had become a child molester, and that it could have gotten even darker and things could have gotten much worse, in order for me to face what was living inside of me and for GOD to Forgive me and to wash me clean. And HE did! Hallelujah!!!! I am not “in recovery” for my past addictions and strongholds because I Am Recovered! Washed Clean! Justified! Sanctified! And set forth on solid ground for a purpose and time such as this! Believe that!!
In making amends we must come face to face with the person we have wronged. He or she knows the whole truth and may feel it deeply. They may see all too clearly that to which we are blind. Now we get a glimpse of ourselves and the pain we have caused in the eyes of the one we have hurt. Their anger or their grief can be used by GOD to tear down the veil behind which we have hidden from ourselves and help us see who we really are. And it was all JESUS in, with and through me when I met with one of the young men I had not only seduced but infected with HIV. I seduced him into that darkness when he was just 14 and it went on until he was 18, which is the year before I was Saved from my death-bed at age 37 and was lead, by The HOLY GHOST, into HIS Light of Truth and set on the path that would bring me to where I am at this present time.
Many cringe at the pain this might involve. We make all manner of excuses to escape a clear view of ourselves. We may even convince others that it is not wise or possible to make amends when we are really simply protecting ourselves from seeing ourselves. This is utter foolishness and a lie from the pits of hell!!!
While there are times when it's genuinely unwise or impossible to make amends, let us beware lest we cheat ourselves of the necessary Blessing of self-knowledge by avoiding what is unpleasant for us rather than hurtful for the one to whom we brought pain. Let us remember that there is no progress without knowing from whence we came and where we want to go. Let us ask GOD for Grace, Guidance and Strength to get to know ourselves in making amends, to restore relationships and see that they are never fractured again, and to grow up into CHRIST in all things. If these things come to pass, we will have made amends and found Blessings that will last for the rest of our lives.
Dear LORD, Please keep me from undermining my walk with YOU and my growth by trying to protect myself from necessary suffering. Especially make me willing to know the pain of seeing myself clearly, boils, scars, warts and all! Only then can I leave that which I do not want to be and, by YOUR Grace, become that which I long to be. Set me free from the tyranny of self-ignorance and grant me the freedom of self-knowledge! Thank YOU for all of the Blessings YOU provide. I Praise & Glorify YOU. I Pray to YOU, CHRIST JESUS, in YOUR Precious and Holy Name. Amen.
Reading 1Timothy 4:1-16 this morning….