When I grew up there was a stigma over being gay (same-sex attracted). There was guilting, shaming and condemnation in culture & society. I would later learn that the same stigma lingered within the church as well. I recognized I was gay from as far back as I can remember. I also grew up in the time where the "T" was added to the "LGB" acronym, placing my own delusion into the mix as a "sexual orientation" which fed my mental disorder even more.
Let me attempt to clear up some false beliefs & lies about being gay, which is a sexual orientation, and being trans, which is, by definition, a mental disorder. I am more than qualified to speak on this as I am a gay man that once suffered from gender identity disorder aka confusion.
My father took his life before I was born, which means I always longed for male affirmation. I was also molested as a young child. Neither of these things "made me gay", being gay is a part of my innate individual design just as being straight is a part of other peoples' innate individual design. It actually is the exact same thing, and falls under the definition of a sexual orientation.
Being fatherless and then being molested several times by different men, along with the stigma of being same-sex attracted, caused me to dissociate from who I was and begin identifying as a girl. It was frightening for me, a child, to be gay, which causes internalized homophobia. These are just a few of the reasons that children fall into this deception of being trans-identified. The list of underlying issues is very extensive and once those issues are dealt with, or addressed, the individual almost always receives clarity and comes out of the delusion of being trans.
I spent 30+ years in the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and 20+ of those years as a "transgender-woman". I remember how I sincerely believed (or wanted to) that I "felt like a woman" but that was absurd, not to mention impossible, because I couldn't possibly know what a woman "feels" like having never been a woman. Being a woman, a female, is not a thought or feeling, it is not an emotion, and it is not a wish. Being a woman is many things, but most of all (which is why I could never know what it is being male) it is biological.
Being a woman; each woman has over 6,500 chromosome markers that make them distinctly female, not to mention the DNA, having ovaries, having the ability to produce eggs or to bear a child, and that extensive list goes on as well. Being a woman is not even something that I, as a man, can capture in this blog post so I will not even attempt to do so. Just needed to mention the most important things that science has proven cannot be changed with any amount of pills, shots, surgeries or procedures.
Let me give a breakdown of my own personal life knowledge & experience within this cult as one who also suffered from the dysphoria of not wanting to recognize my own identity as the male I was created to be. I was very young when I began to dissociate from being David. My mother did not give in to my delusions, nor did she allow any of the "transitioning" to take place under her roof. I ran away from home at age 14. I lived on the streets of Philadelphia. I was immediately embraced by the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and I became a 14 year old homeless runaway prostitute, thief, drug addict, alcoholic and sex addict. I began wrong-sex hormones at age 14, which I bought on the black market (on the streets) from the same guy I bought my weed & cocaine from.
I was also HIV+ at age 14. The HIV/AIDS virus was claiming the lives of many at the time, and many of my "friends" & associates were dropping like flies from this disease. I became a very angry and "void" teenager that had no sense reality. The wrong-sex hormones I was taking made me an emotional wreck, as I'd go from happy to sad to violent to suicidal at the drop of a dime. Was I suicidal as a young trans person? Yes. I was suicidal as an adult trans-identified person as well.
Did those feelings of suicide, depression and angst go away once I was accepted and my thoughts & feelings were validated? No. Truth be told, I was suicidal for so many years that I only know that I attempted it a few times, thought about it a lot, and also used those thoughts & feelings to my own advantage to "get my way" or to be pitied. There is a very powerful victimhood you possess when you suffer from mental conditions like dysphoria/confusion, depression, dissociative disorder, etc... We express our "victimhood" by lashing out at self & others.
I was in and out of juvenile detention where I was raped, jumped and tossed to & fro. I learned how to become a commodity, yes a piece of property that could be bought or sold, traded or used, abused and disillusioned. As an adult I was in and out of jail and prison, where I had already learned my place and my value. There weren't any men, regardless of their delusion/mental confusion, being placed in women's facilities back then.
By 37 I ended up on my deathbed with full blown AIDS, infections in my brain & blood, boils covering my body, no immune system and a viral load that was the highest my infectious disease clinic had ever seen. I also suffered from Osteoporosis (commonly known as an elderly womans disease, from the hormones I'd taken) and I couldn't walk without a walker.
I was sent home to die. A hospital bed was placed in my home and hospice was put into place. As I waited to die I received clarity that allowed me to see my confusion for what it was, and to start dealing with my underlying issues. As a Christian there's a lot more to that aspect of my story, but you will have to read or listen to my testimony for more. I was healed. I completely pulled through and had a new lease on life, as David, the man I was created to be.
I accepted that being gay was "a sin" long before I had ever went to a church building or read any of the Bible. It is something that we learn, or are programmed with, through culture & society as the guilt, shame and condemnation are evident in words, deeds and actions that surround us on a daily basis from as far back as we can remember. So when reality struck me and I recognized I could never possibly be a woman, and that I was created & born to be a man, I had already threw being gay in the same box as being trans. My mind wasn't able to decipher the facts of logic and common-sense because I was programmed already.
When I detransitioned I had already accepted the lie that being same-sex attracted was sinful & wrong, so I tossed it in the same box as the trans-identity confusion and moved on. The feedback and attacks from the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult were absolutely severe and everyone I knew turned on me like I was a vicious enemy. I couldn't go anywhere I had previously went because I didn't support the rainbow cult and those trapped in that delusion were aggressively angry & hostile towards me. All of my so-called "friends" had cut me off and/or threatened me.
So I ran to the church. I knew that God had saved me from death, so I figured that was my only option. I wanted to belong, especially after having every aspect of my life ripped away just because I was no longer confused about my own sex and because I didn't want to support that dark rainbow movement that had abused, used and confused me from such a young age. I spent years denying my own same-sex attraction because I sincerely believed it was a sin in God's eyes. Until I studied the Bible myself and found otherwise. That info can be found here.
I am now very much able to distinguish what a sexual orientation is and what a mental disorder is. Somewhere along the line we (all nations) have begun to promote, encourage and even celebrate mental confusion and disorders, as well as a movement that has become the largest, most deadly political cult this earth has ever seen. The lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult is hellbent on sexualizing people (especially children), medicalizing people (especially children), confusing, using, abusing, indoctrinating, bamboozling, tricking and wreaking havoc on the minds, bodies and souls of anyone that gets in its path. This cult is targeting, preying on and devouring children while we sit around playing nice, making sure we use the correct pronouns and in fear of offending someone because they suffer from a mental disorder!
I know that it has become a scary time for sure, and this cult has gained a lot of ground legally and politically. But fear not! Truth will always conquer the lies that this cult is embedding in the minds and hearts of those it envelopes. To understand more of how this cult has gotten to this place of being legally protected by politics and fear, please read RAINBOW UMBRELLA.
While I am a Christian, that should not deter anyone from reading or sharing this blog post, or from reaching out, inviting, corresponding, etc... this battle can be won, but we must all be ready, willing & able to reach across the aisle and lock arms with those we do not agree with, that do not live like us, that do not look like us or that do not believe what we believe... for the children!
I know what it is like to be sexualized as a young child, molested, used up, passed around, profited off of and then tossed away like garbage when there's no more use. I have also seen this vicious cycle within the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult for 30+ years. I know the delusions of being a man that believes he is a woman. I know the perversion of many fetishes that envelope the member of this rainbow cult. I also know the freedom & peace that comes with clarity & healing. So please, feel free to reach out. I ain't going anywhere.
CONTACT ME
Let me attempt to clear up some false beliefs & lies about being gay, which is a sexual orientation, and being trans, which is, by definition, a mental disorder. I am more than qualified to speak on this as I am a gay man that once suffered from gender identity disorder aka confusion.
My father took his life before I was born, which means I always longed for male affirmation. I was also molested as a young child. Neither of these things "made me gay", being gay is a part of my innate individual design just as being straight is a part of other peoples' innate individual design. It actually is the exact same thing, and falls under the definition of a sexual orientation.
Being fatherless and then being molested several times by different men, along with the stigma of being same-sex attracted, caused me to dissociate from who I was and begin identifying as a girl. It was frightening for me, a child, to be gay, which causes internalized homophobia. These are just a few of the reasons that children fall into this deception of being trans-identified. The list of underlying issues is very extensive and once those issues are dealt with, or addressed, the individual almost always receives clarity and comes out of the delusion of being trans.
I spent 30+ years in the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and 20+ of those years as a "transgender-woman". I remember how I sincerely believed (or wanted to) that I "felt like a woman" but that was absurd, not to mention impossible, because I couldn't possibly know what a woman "feels" like having never been a woman. Being a woman, a female, is not a thought or feeling, it is not an emotion, and it is not a wish. Being a woman is many things, but most of all (which is why I could never know what it is being male) it is biological.
Being a woman; each woman has over 6,500 chromosome markers that make them distinctly female, not to mention the DNA, having ovaries, having the ability to produce eggs or to bear a child, and that extensive list goes on as well. Being a woman is not even something that I, as a man, can capture in this blog post so I will not even attempt to do so. Just needed to mention the most important things that science has proven cannot be changed with any amount of pills, shots, surgeries or procedures.
Let me give a breakdown of my own personal life knowledge & experience within this cult as one who also suffered from the dysphoria of not wanting to recognize my own identity as the male I was created to be. I was very young when I began to dissociate from being David. My mother did not give in to my delusions, nor did she allow any of the "transitioning" to take place under her roof. I ran away from home at age 14. I lived on the streets of Philadelphia. I was immediately embraced by the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and I became a 14 year old homeless runaway prostitute, thief, drug addict, alcoholic and sex addict. I began wrong-sex hormones at age 14, which I bought on the black market (on the streets) from the same guy I bought my weed & cocaine from.
I was also HIV+ at age 14. The HIV/AIDS virus was claiming the lives of many at the time, and many of my "friends" & associates were dropping like flies from this disease. I became a very angry and "void" teenager that had no sense reality. The wrong-sex hormones I was taking made me an emotional wreck, as I'd go from happy to sad to violent to suicidal at the drop of a dime. Was I suicidal as a young trans person? Yes. I was suicidal as an adult trans-identified person as well.
Did those feelings of suicide, depression and angst go away once I was accepted and my thoughts & feelings were validated? No. Truth be told, I was suicidal for so many years that I only know that I attempted it a few times, thought about it a lot, and also used those thoughts & feelings to my own advantage to "get my way" or to be pitied. There is a very powerful victimhood you possess when you suffer from mental conditions like dysphoria/confusion, depression, dissociative disorder, etc... We express our "victimhood" by lashing out at self & others.
I was in and out of juvenile detention where I was raped, jumped and tossed to & fro. I learned how to become a commodity, yes a piece of property that could be bought or sold, traded or used, abused and disillusioned. As an adult I was in and out of jail and prison, where I had already learned my place and my value. There weren't any men, regardless of their delusion/mental confusion, being placed in women's facilities back then.
By 37 I ended up on my deathbed with full blown AIDS, infections in my brain & blood, boils covering my body, no immune system and a viral load that was the highest my infectious disease clinic had ever seen. I also suffered from Osteoporosis (commonly known as an elderly womans disease, from the hormones I'd taken) and I couldn't walk without a walker.
I was sent home to die. A hospital bed was placed in my home and hospice was put into place. As I waited to die I received clarity that allowed me to see my confusion for what it was, and to start dealing with my underlying issues. As a Christian there's a lot more to that aspect of my story, but you will have to read or listen to my testimony for more. I was healed. I completely pulled through and had a new lease on life, as David, the man I was created to be.
I accepted that being gay was "a sin" long before I had ever went to a church building or read any of the Bible. It is something that we learn, or are programmed with, through culture & society as the guilt, shame and condemnation are evident in words, deeds and actions that surround us on a daily basis from as far back as we can remember. So when reality struck me and I recognized I could never possibly be a woman, and that I was created & born to be a man, I had already threw being gay in the same box as being trans. My mind wasn't able to decipher the facts of logic and common-sense because I was programmed already.
When I detransitioned I had already accepted the lie that being same-sex attracted was sinful & wrong, so I tossed it in the same box as the trans-identity confusion and moved on. The feedback and attacks from the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult were absolutely severe and everyone I knew turned on me like I was a vicious enemy. I couldn't go anywhere I had previously went because I didn't support the rainbow cult and those trapped in that delusion were aggressively angry & hostile towards me. All of my so-called "friends" had cut me off and/or threatened me.
So I ran to the church. I knew that God had saved me from death, so I figured that was my only option. I wanted to belong, especially after having every aspect of my life ripped away just because I was no longer confused about my own sex and because I didn't want to support that dark rainbow movement that had abused, used and confused me from such a young age. I spent years denying my own same-sex attraction because I sincerely believed it was a sin in God's eyes. Until I studied the Bible myself and found otherwise. That info can be found here.
I am now very much able to distinguish what a sexual orientation is and what a mental disorder is. Somewhere along the line we (all nations) have begun to promote, encourage and even celebrate mental confusion and disorders, as well as a movement that has become the largest, most deadly political cult this earth has ever seen. The lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult is hellbent on sexualizing people (especially children), medicalizing people (especially children), confusing, using, abusing, indoctrinating, bamboozling, tricking and wreaking havoc on the minds, bodies and souls of anyone that gets in its path. This cult is targeting, preying on and devouring children while we sit around playing nice, making sure we use the correct pronouns and in fear of offending someone because they suffer from a mental disorder!
I know that it has become a scary time for sure, and this cult has gained a lot of ground legally and politically. But fear not! Truth will always conquer the lies that this cult is embedding in the minds and hearts of those it envelopes. To understand more of how this cult has gotten to this place of being legally protected by politics and fear, please read RAINBOW UMBRELLA.
While I am a Christian, that should not deter anyone from reading or sharing this blog post, or from reaching out, inviting, corresponding, etc... this battle can be won, but we must all be ready, willing & able to reach across the aisle and lock arms with those we do not agree with, that do not live like us, that do not look like us or that do not believe what we believe... for the children!
I know what it is like to be sexualized as a young child, molested, used up, passed around, profited off of and then tossed away like garbage when there's no more use. I have also seen this vicious cycle within the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult for 30+ years. I know the delusions of being a man that believes he is a woman. I know the perversion of many fetishes that envelope the member of this rainbow cult. I also know the freedom & peace that comes with clarity & healing. So please, feel free to reach out. I ain't going anywhere.
CONTACT ME