This world is full of pleasure and unrealistic/fake illusions. I did not find, and could not give, what I was looking for. I could not find Real, True, Pure Love, Faithfulness, Commitment, Devotion, Contentment, and that deep Joy we are all seeking & lacking. I even envied the Joy, Peace and Happiness I saw in the eyes of some, and in their lives.
For me, personally, I had to find out that because a homosexual or transgender identity is a lie, it leaves us with a hole in our souls that nothing seems to fill, so we desperately race down the yellow-brick road to nowhere and wonder why we find no lasting satisfaction.
What about sincerely trying to follow The CHRIST? I know there are hypocrites out there, but there are hypocrites everywhere and anywhere you go in this world. You may have been hurt by folks who claimed to be “Christian”, but saying something does not make it so. If someone is a True Disciple of JESUS The CHRIST then it will show, it will be obvious in their words, deeds and their actions. When you were hurt by someone who claimed to be Christian, was that person really following YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, or were they 'doing their own thing'"?
Don't look at counterfeits. Go to someone who is Genuine and ask them if they regret their commitment to YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. While they may tell you that it can be difficult and involves sacrifice which may at times be painful, they will also tell you that HE has given them Life that is Life more abundantly and that they would not trade their best day without HIM for their worst day with HIM.
Does the True Child of GOD Almighty needlessly wound others, or is their influence a healing one? Are they a Blessing or a curse? Do you secretly envy what you see in them and wish it could be yours? It can be!
Renounce, once and for all, the false identity and lies that you have accepted and look to The Cross, to the ONE with whom your identity is rooted. As you identify with YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, you will find that you are identifying with a “new you”, the True you. HE brought Blessing wherever HE went, and so will you. HE never hurt anyone unless pain was necessary to truly Bless them. Be like HIM. Stop following your lust/flesh and the god of this world. Give yourself to HIM. Then be patient with the process. You won't regret it.
Heavenly FATHER, Thank YOU that there is One with Whom I can identify and so, by YOUR Grace and the ministry of YOUR HOLY GHOST, I become all I ever dreamed of being in my best moments. Thank YOU for robing YOURSELF in flesh and coming to this world, as The Man YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, to reveal exactly what YOU meant us to be. Grant that I may Faithfully follow The Example laid out before me in The Scriptures all the days of my life. Thank YOU for all of the many Blessings YOU pour out on us every single moment of every single day. I Worship YOU! I Praise YOU! I glorify YOU! I Love YOU! And this I pray in The Precious Name of YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
Reading 1 Thessalonians 1:1-10...