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    Safe In The Cage

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    I found some very early journal entries from 2009 & 2010; I was fresh out of the world of perversion. This is pretty deep, and detailed. This is my own personal life experience and knowledge that I've gained in my life.

    Journal Entry 09/15/2010 6:09 am- "I didn't mind getting in trouble and being sent to the hole [solitary confinement] because in lockdown I could stay in bed all day and my meals were brought to me. "This is the LIFE," I thought to myself on more than one occasion in the filthy 6' X 9' cement room while laying on my inch thick worn out piece of foam that they called a mattress that rested on a cold steel frame. That was the county jail... then I finally graduated... to PRISON!

    It was a whole new ball game, now I was being housed with real convicts that had a lot more time to do than the guys I was used to in the county jails. These convicts were also guilty of some horrible & heinous crimes.

    My first week in prison I had been 'coerced' to engage in many sexual activities with more than a handful of guys, not to mention the ones I was doing just for kicks. It wasn't so much that I minded being raped, it was almost nothing at that point in my life. I knew how to lay there, take it and zone out so I could move on and forget it when the perpetrator was done with me. I was... just a commodity after all. 

    Sad existence to be immune to rape, and to believe it okay or normal to be forced to be the subject of some random man's lusts & pleasures. Especially afterwards, to not report it but to just take a shower, wash it away and move on. At times I believe I found solace in the attention I got, or the deranged thought that I was just "that sensual!" 

    I always wanted more, just didn't know it was available to someone like me. I really just wanted to be loved or at least held and appreciated. But if they couldn't handle that then it was time they went to the canteen and took care of me from that point forward. I became a hooker on the inside of those prison walls because I was a hooker on the outside them. It truly is all I knew, engaging in sexual activities with men and boys. And it was what I thought 'survival' was all about.

    There was one incident that haunted me for years; I was transferred to another prison and I punched a corrections officer in the face for calling me "queer". (that word was a very derogatory & insulting slur)

    After hitting the officer, I knew I was wrong. But I was emotionally driven by thoughts & feelings w/ the abnormal condition of mental confusion: that is gender dysphoria. I was attacked, maced, beat on, stomped on and hurt badly by the Response Team. After being dragged across the entire compound (literally) to the confinement block, I was put into a shower stall naked; beaten and stomped on some more by the officers. I was also "gassed" every few hours... that is military grade tear-gassed. Then I was placed in a cell with 2 "lifers" (convicts serving life sentences).

    Both of these men were in solitary confinement lockdown for at least a year each. I was totally, literally & horrifically used & abused. Severely raped and abused for days! I was rescued by chance. The one friend I had made there, a nurse from the main compound, just so happened to fill in for the usual nurse that day and had to bring medications to an inmate that was in the lock-down area they had me in.

    She saw me laying on a mat, on the floor, beaten down, bruised, out of it and completely drained and she demanded I be brought down to the main compound ASAP. She probably saved my life. It was nothing nice and I was reminded of those horrible 3 days & nights for a very long time with the stitches, the aches, pains (internal and external), as well as the terrible nightmares I suffered for years to come.

    I was transferred out of there right after I was rescued by the nurse, and informed I could file a formal report OR I could forget it ever happened, be sent to another facility, get all of my "gain time" (something the prison system gives you (or takes away) for good behavior) and get out of prison sooner, rather than later. The admin blackmailed me into not reporting how the officers on that compound treated me or the danger they placed me in by putting me in a cell with 2 convicts serving life sentences.

    Of course I opted for the latter. I did my time but what really surprised me the most was that I actually felt bad when it was time for me to go home. I wasn't quite sure I wanted to leave. I was "safe in the cage"!
    *End Of Entry*

    What is "Safe In The Cage?" It is a term used when someone is in prison and they get so used to the safety/confines of having their meals, accommodations etc... all taken care of that they don't really have a desire to be "free." I've known some inmates to commit another crime before their release date just to stay in prison.

    In prison I received so much attention. I was the closest thing to a woman some of those men would ever see again. That was my mentality and the way I thought. Sad, I know. I am so very Blessed to be able to look back and see the man I am today! What a Powerful GOD we have!

    The tears I cry as I post this blog! I hadn't thought about that scenario in a very long time. GOD Kept me safe in HIS Grip even when I was denying HIM and ignoring HIM.

    It amazes me at times.
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    Dr. John Money: The Pedo-Apologist ​That Coined The Term/Concept Of "Gender"

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    “Gender Identity” is propaganda! Although it is a hot-topic today and has become a focal point of not just social discourse, but legal policy and procedure, it remains something that was invented to cause chaos, division, and confusion. Few people know it’s disturbing origins.

    Dr. John Money, a sexologist and psychologist who practiced at the infamous Johns Hopkins Hospital, is considered the first to actually coin, or utilize, the terms “gender identity” and “gender role,” describing the “internal experience of sexuality” and the “social expectations of male and female behavior." These concepts are prominently featured in trans activism today and are used to bolster claims of “gender fluidity” as well as a slew of other non-existent propaganda that these extremists claim.

    Dr. Money’s history is a dark and very controversial one, the details of which are often neglected when discussing his contribution to the popularization of “gender vs. sex” theory.

    Like many sexologists, Dr. Money believed pedophilia was a harmless sexuality which, "when practiced properly,” led to the child suffering no harm. In fact, Dr. Money’s theories on pedophilia were so sympathetic that, to this day, his work is prominently featured on the website of the North American Man-Boy Love Association (NAMBLA) – one of the longest-established & largest pederast rights organizations in the world.

    In the 1990s, Dr. Money allowed himself to be featured in interviews with Paidika, a pedophile psychology journal named after the Greek adjective for “boyish,” and has been used by pedophile rights activists to refer to the younger partner in a pederastic (pedophile) relationship.

    In a 1991 interview for the journal, Money is quoted as saying: “If I were to see the case of a boy aged ten or eleven who’s intensely erotically attracted toward a man in his twenties or thirties, if the relationship is totally mutual, and the bonding is genuinely totally mutual, then I would not call it pathological in any way.”

    And just in case you haven't gotten the Truth memo, please allow me to state that, No Child Can EVER Consent To Sex With Anyone! Ever!!

    Dr. Money also noted that he “never” reported any of the pedophiles to police, even those who were actively abusing children, due to his belief that adult-child sex was normal and “often beneficial.” But Dr. Money’s views on pedophilia hardly touch the darkest and most depraved facets of his history; that being the case of David (born Bruce) Reimer.

    Born in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada in 1965, Reimer was the victim of a botched medical circumcision when he was 6 months old. The procedure sought to address a urination problem Reimer was experiencing, but instead left his penis mutilated beyond repair.

    Reimer’s parents took him to Baltimore to see Money in 1967, concerned about his future sexual and romantic prospects. At the time, Money was known for his research with intersex people, and was considered a pioneer of gender reassignment.

    Money recommended Reimer be subjected to a genital reconstruction to create a vulva and suggested to his parents that raising him as a girl would be in his best interests. He was convinced that “gender” could be socially learned, and Reimer provided an ideal subject through which to test his theories due to having a twin brother, Brian, that could be used as a male control.

    Throughout his early childhood, Reimer was never told he was born a male, and he was subjected to hormone therapy early on in order to lead him through a female puberty. Reimer was regularly seen by Money, who tracked his progress in an effort to demonstrate his theory that gender was malleable.

    During check-ups, Money would subject the twin boys to disturbing experiments. They were forced to replicate sexual intercourse with each other, touch and inspect each other’s genitals, and watch pornography. Money would show the twins photos from smut magazines and “explicit” sexual photos of kids. He would then prod them about their sexual arousal and question their attractions. The children were also expected to comply in front of audiences of as many as 6 other adults, and some reports state Money also took photos and videos of the children engaged in rehearsed sexual activity. At the time, both of the twins were just 6 years old.

    Later testimony from one of the twins stated that Money had “two sides” to his personality — one when their parents were around, and one when they were alone. When alone with the children, Money was abusive and got irate with them for refusing to perform for him. In a later statement, they both recall fearing he would “whup” them if they did not do as he asked and strip their clothes.

    As David Reimer aged, he became increasingly resistant to seeing Money, and begged his parents not to force him to go to Baltimore for check-ups. Despite feminizing hormones and surgery, Reimer identified as a male and refused to believe he was a girl though he had never been told he was born a boy — a catastrophic rebuttal of Money’s theories on gender.

    By the age of 14, Reimer was experiencing suicidal ideations and refused any further contact with Money. He demanded the truth from his parents, which they eventually told him in 1980.

    Despite that, Money proceeded to declare his experiments a success, and his “findings” were used in later studies to justify genital surgeries imposed on some intersex children with ambiguous genitalia.

    Both Reimer and his brother would take their own lives, with Brian committing suicide via drug overdose in 2002 after a life-long battle with schizophrenia, and David shooting himself in the head in 2004 at the age of 38. Their parents stated that they attributed their son’s deaths to the trauma imparted upon them from Money’s methods.

    Despite the disturbing origins, Money’s legacy lives on in the concept of “gender” as a unique and quantifiable element apart from sex. It also lives on in the existence of gender identity clinics, the first of which was established by Money at Johns Hopkins in 1965.

    While proponents of trans ideology sometimes misappropriate Money’s abusive experiments on Reimer as “proof” that a person cannot be forced to live as a “gender” they are not — they gloss over the critical reality that Reimer’s experience demonstrates a person cannot be something they are not, full stop.

    No amount of female hormones, clothes, surgery, or sexualization made David Reimer act or think any differently than his very male self-promulgated. Even a synthetic, half-cocked feminized puberty did not change David Reimer.

    Reimer was introduced to the bells and whistles of another “gender identity” from the earliest moments of his life as an infant and was still a male — a total refutation of gender activist demands that “trans kids” be provided chemical interventions as early as possible for more “successful” transition outcomes.

    In fact, the results of a 30 year-long study conducted in Sweden also confirm this fact. Performed by six distinguished researchers from the Karolinska Institute, the study found that “transwomen” demonstrated male patterns of criminal behavior which persisted even after a full medical and surgical transition. It also found that surgical gender interventions did not make any difference in the suicide rates of transgender patients.

    These results have largely been disregarded by extremists and the trans activists, who continue to insist that a man who injects himself with estrogen and wears dresses is no longer a man and does not “think” or “act” like a man. It is here — in the face of a total lack of evidence — where trans activism then takes on its own religious qualities, and begins deferring to magical gendered brains and souls, the solution to which seems to be a therapist and an exorcist, respectively.

    Dr. John Money was a pervert. He was a child abuser. He was a pedophile sympathizer (pedo-apologist), as well as a pedophile himself. And if a movement finds its origins in a man like John Money, it is time for that movement to be exposed, and stopped. It is time for culture and society to stand up against the lgbTQia+ TransQueer Rainbow Cult and break away from this type of group-think and this dark cloud of perversion that has enveloped so many of us over the years.

    You can watch a moving live stream I did with Dr Judith Reisman and Vicki Joy Anderson: Sexual Revolution 
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    You Think You Got This?!!?

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    Some people stumble into sin. Some fall. Some jump. While others play around on the edges, seeing how close they can get to it without actually doing it, until they plunge right back into the cesspools that once held them captive.

    Poof~Boom~Bam! It really can be that simple. It happened with me... I kept seeing how "strong" I was and how close I could get without falling... until I fell! Head first! 

    The very first thing we must do, when coming out of the world, out of the strongholds, perversions, addictions, habits and sin is admit that we are powerless. We must admit that our lives are unmanageable without JESUS The CHRIST. This is not a suggestion, this is a must!

    One way to test whether you have done this or need to give it more work is to see how you view the world. Do you look on it with dread or with longing? Do you miss it or are you overjoyed to no longer be a part of it?

    Some people, secretly longing for it rather than fearing sin, try to see how close they can get to it without an actual fall. They maintain friendships with those who have chosen to continue in sin and who try to tempt them to do it too. They participate in immoral, unholy & spiritually unbeneficial things. They go to secular movies & watch television programs that are ungodly and full of what The Word demands we steer clear from. Foolishly thinking, "I got this" we end up playing around the edges of sin, only to be amazed & so shocked when we fall in. Then we are stunned at how difficult it really is to get back out of that cesspool of deception!

    Outside of JESUS The CHRIST, we are powerless over sin and the god of this world! Some of us never really grasp this concept. This teaches that to try to get near sin without committing it is as sensible as trying to see how near you can get to a grizzly bear without becoming its next meal!

    The one who has accepted that they are powerless and has developed a sense of the terrible, destructive power that sin can exercise over their life, stays as far away from it as is humanly possible.

    If you don’t want to fall/stumble, then stay away from those people, places & things that will stir in you a sense of false boldness to see how close you can get to the sin without actually sinning. That's just a simple & practical way of stating the reality that Freedom speaks to. 

    Accept that you are powerless outside of JESUS The CHRIST. Do this over again thoroughly, thoughtfully & prayerfully. Remember that you are powerless and remember your emotional unmanageability and beware. The CHRIST has been crucified, this ole flesh has not! We must do this on a daily basis or we will fall/stumble into depravity and past deceptions.

    "Put ye on the LORD JESUS The CHRIST, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill the lusts thereof" ~ Romans 13:14.

    Oh Precious FATHER, Will we ever learn? Please teach us, by YOUR Holy Spirit and through YOUR Word, in context, how helpless we are against the flesh, the world and our adversary that is just waiting to pounce & devour each of. Please teach us to abide in YOU and to keep as much distance between ourselves and sin as is humanly possible.

    Allow us to learn from YOUR Holy Spirit rather than from bitter experience. Thank YOU, FATHER, for all of the Blessings YOU bestow upon us all. I Praise & Glorify YOU and I Pray in The Precious Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.

    ​Reading Romans Chapter 13….
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    The Full Measure

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    Ever heard of "two-stepping?" No, not dancing. It's a term that is used in recovery groups/programs that describes people who discover their powerlessness and the insanity of the life they've been living and then, without working towards the full freedom of recovery or actually rediscovering their true identity in JESUS The CHRIST, they rush out to carry The GOoD News to the world.

    The results are usually disastrous. The two-stepper, who has not gotten to a place of True Freedom, fades and then falls away, leaving those to whom they've spoken to disillusioned and even more skeptical than before. We must be careful not to make this very mistake, as I have in my own past. I spent 11 years spreading the joy and good news of The Gospel, but wasn't properly trained up or ready to do so. And I fell.

    I spent just over 2 years (after over 11 years of being "free) trying to be a "gay" Christian and could not seem to find purpose in that, only pain. But GOD... HE actually turned it all around for HIS good, and gave me even more life experience and knowledge in that dark cult we know as the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Movement.
     
    We must have a True Spiritual Awakening before we begin carrying the message to others. JESUS The CHRIST has laid before us a sure way to come to HIM and to receive the Hope of Eternal Salvation. Believe. Repent. Be Baptized. Surrender. Live Accordingly. That's Freedom.
     
    We must remember that we have not "arrived" until we obtain "the measure of the stature of the fullness of The CHRIST" (Ephesians 4:13). The Full Measure! For all of us, there is plenty of room for improvement!  
     
    In carrying the message to others that are hurting & lost we often find the deep wells of Joy in being an Overcomer. While it gives the Joy of a closer walk with GOD Almighty, thrilling self-discovery, and ever-increasing Freedom, it can, at times, be painful, discouraging or maybe for some, just plain boring!
     
    What will keep us going when we hit those dry patches where our soul can become parched? It's the Joy of seeing others find the Truth and grow in the Grace & Knowledge of The Will of GOD Almighty. Are there ever disappointments? Of course! But the rich rewards of being used to Bless others in life-changing ways keeps us going until we reach our goal!
     
    Oh, Heavenly FATHER, Thank YOU for this day and for all of the Mighty Blessings, great & small, that YOU have so graciously and abundantly bestowed upon each one of us. I truly need YOUR Joy! I thank YOU for not pampering my selfishness by giving it to me to keep all to myself. Thank YOU for leading me out of myself and into YOUR Likeness as I reach out to seek & to reach the lost. Encourage me. Bless my faltering efforts. Grant me the grace of patience. Then, please grant me YOUR Joy. I Praise & Glorify YOU. I Pray to YOU in The Mighty & Powerful Name of Your Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
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    Being Thankful In Everything... That Means EVERYTHING!

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    How can we possibly be thankful "in everything"?

    All things work together for good if we Love GOD and respond to HIS Call - Romans 8:28

    Loving GOD means obedience to HIS Will – 1John 5:3 – So responding to HIS Call means obeying HIS Gospel.

    We can therefore Glory in tribulation – Romans 5:3-5. Knowing that it produces character which in turn produces Hope

    We can rejoice in persecution – Matthew 5:10-12. Knowing that the Kingdom of Heaven is ours.

    We can rejoice in trials – James 1:2-3. Knowing that trials produce patience and that patience produces perfection and completeness, with which comes maturity.
     
    How else can we be thankful in everything?

    By expressing our thanks in every prayer. Philippians 4:6 says, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God”

    Every time you pray, thank GOD for something, for anything, for everything!
     
    Thankfulness is 'key'...

    To overcoming anxiety - Philippians 4:6 ~ Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

    To obtaining the Peace of GOD which surpasses all understanding- Philippians 4:7 ~ and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

    To pray without ceasing, and to rejoicing always ~ 1Thessalonians 5:16-18. When we give thanks in everything, we will pray without ceasing! When we pray without ceasing, we will rejoice always!

    Thankfulness in everything - praying without ceasing - rejoicing always!
     
    If we desire to have the Peace which passes understanding, that Joy which is inexpressible (1Peter 1:8), then we need to develop the attitude of gratitude, being Thankful in everything!

    We are to have the 'attitude of gratitude', being Thankful for what GOD has done for us ~ Colossians 1:12-14.

    Abounding in Thanksgiving ~ Colossians 2:7

    And as a part of the "garment" we are to put on ~ Colossians 3:12-15, where it says, “12 Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; 13 bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do. 14 But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection. 15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful.”

    The ‘attitude of gratitude’ is a complement to our prayers (Colossians 4:2 & 1Timothy 2:1).

    Ingratitude, which is included among other sins, not only displeases GOD but would also be common in those "perilous times" that are spoken of in 2Timothy 3:1-5.

    Romans 1:18-21 says, “18 For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, {{Now by truth, Paul means all the light that is left in man since the fall of man, not as though they being led in this manner were able to come into favor with God, but that their own reason might condemn them of wickedness both against God and against man.}} 19 because what may be known of God is manifest in them, for God has shown it to them. 20 For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse, 21 because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened.”

    So, the wrath of GOD will be revealed against those who are unthankful. It is GOD'S Will that we 'rejoice always' and that we 'pray without ceasing' ~ 1Thessalonians 5:16-18, where we learn that it also GOD'S Will that we 'give thanks in everything'.

    Not only are we to be thankful in everything, but for everything!
     
    Ephesians 5:20-21 tell us, “giving thanks always for all things to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus The Christ, 21 submitting to one another in the fear of God.”!

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    Get It Together

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    Does a shiver of fear run up your spine if I remind you there is "no guarantee" and much "appropriate risk" in revealing our private/personal secret lives to others? Of course, you don't know what exposure could do. Maybe you feel you just can't face any more hurt.
     
    Believe me, I most certainly understand. But we must be transparent, open, bold & blunt in our honesty if we are to help others to recover from the dark addictive world of perversion, addictions, vices & strongholds.
     
    There is Freedom in being transparent, and not just for others, but for ourselves as well. When we get to the point that we can share our deepest & darkest secrets freely and openly, we come to a major accomplishment in our walk, and it brings true Peace.
     
    What are you risking if you don't find the Freedom you seek? Your health, your family, your reputation, your spiritual life just to name a few.

    Sit down and list the things your sin can cost you just by keeping it bottled up & hidden. Count the cost. Then, do what you ought to do. Risk loving enough to be the one that uses this customized tool that GOD has allowed you to obtain, your testimony, to be the key that can help others get Free from their deep dark secrets and the bondage they remain in.

    In this process you can also find Freedom from temptations you may not discuss, or even "hidden sin." The things you may engage in could be broken if only you'd be transparent in your own mission for Freedom. 
     
    Don’t let anyone steer you away from the very righteousness that GOD Almighty has called you to.
     
    Dear Heavenly FATHER, I remember when I felt like such a coward. Thank YOU that YOU understood me and were ready to give me Grace to help whenever I need it. Thank YOU for granting me the Grace of Courage to recover, courage to Love, courage to Live and Courage to be open and honest to help others see that there is a way out of the darkness and confusion which envelopes them. Please continue to Strengthen me to move forward despite my fears and to never turn back until I experience all that YOU have promised. I Praise YOU, Glorify YOU and Pray to YOU in The Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
     
    Reading Proverbs 14:13-34 this morning….