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Dear Big Pharma, Medical/Mental Health Workers, Educators & The World

3/25/2023

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​Dear Big Pharma, Medical & Mental Health Workers, Educators & All Who Care For Children, Children are not experimentations. People are not projects or lab rats. Creation is not up for grabs, changeable, mutable, alterable or in need of assistance. I was a suicidal transkid. I was confused, suffered from GD/GID (Gender DYSphoria/Gender Identity DISorder) from a very young age.

If only the "why" would've been explored then maybe I could've not crossed the rainbow bridge into fantasyland and fell into the trap of this mass of political wickedness being promoted, encouraged & celebrated across all nations. This IS a trap ya know? And the only thing you would have to do to step away from this cult is admit your wrong. Just humble yourself and let the pride go; then admit that you've been fooled, bamboozled, tricked, lied to and deceived just as all of us have. There is no shame in being wrong, well, unless you remain wrong even after hearing, reading & seeing the truth all around you.

My name is David, I am a detransitioner. We are not uncommon, nor are we that "small population" that the cult keeps saying we are. Detransitioners do not report back to the clinics, doctors or therapists that we feel are responsible for leading us astray, pushing us into the darkness and for the irreversible damage to us medically, physically, emotionally and mentally. 

Like I said, I was the confused & suicidal "transkid" often mentioned in these debates & discussions, but I was also confused & suicidal as a trans-adult. In case nobody has told you yet, affirmation, acceptance and transition does not change any of the underlying comorbidities or issues that lead a person into the delusion of this abnormal condition of mental confusion.
 
I began taking wrong sex hormones at 14 and was on them for over 20 years. I had Osteoporosis (commonly known as an elderly woman's disease of bone loss), diabetes and I was sterile (not able to produce children) all before the age of 30. PLEASE consider my own life knowledge & experience in making any future decisions with anyone, child or adult, that makes the claim of being trans-identified.

I beg of you to pay close attention to the youth that are being enveloped by the false narrative from this cult. I know, I've said "cult" a few times and have yet to explain what I mean. Well, as someone that was an advocate & member of the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow movement for well over 30 years, and as one who identified as a transwoman for over 20 years, I would think that my own life knowledge & experience in this movement give me plenty of foundation and expertise in saying that I know, from experience (not just my own alone, but thousands of others as well) that this movement is, in fact, a cult. I also know that it represents anything perverted, confusing, deceptive, backwards, upside down, fallible, defective and that list is endless.

Medically speaking, there actually is no consensus among all medical or mental health providers on how to treat gender identity disorders in youth. Without differential diagnoses or treatment of their mental co-morbidities, vulnerable children are being ushered mindlessly by their doctors & therapists towards puberty blockers, synthetic hormones, procedures and surgeries that will cause irreversible damage. The evidence proves that these methods sterilize youth and destroy their sexual function, not to mention their mental health and their physical bodies.

Progressive European countries that pioneered these trans-affirming medical treatments recently conducted a Systematic Evidence Review and discovered that these treatments & procedures that are being used/done are ineffective and, in fact, harmful because they lead to severe medical & mental health issues.

Consequently, since 2021 a number of European countries began abolishing pediatric transgender medicalization.

UK: https://cass.independent-review.uk

Sweden: https://segm.org/Sweden_ends_use_of_Dutch_protocol

France: https://segm.org/France-cautions-regarding-puberty-blockers-and-cross-sex-hormones-for-youth

Please, whether you agree with me or not, watch this new award-winning documentary on the medical ethics of pediatric trans medicine, "AFFIRMATION GENERATION." It cites 45 academic medical studies, platforms 12 experts (pediatrician, physicians, mental health professionals, an Oxford sociology professor and others) and features the stories of six detransitioners. Please pass it on to colleagues.

www.vimeo.com/800032857 - AFFIRMATION GENERATION: The Lies of Transgender Medicine

Before you blow this off as some "conservative or religious mumbo-jumbo" just know that this film was created & funded by lifelong West Coast liberal democrats. Just watch it, please.

I would also suggest watching the #RESIDUE documentary which is available on YouTube or Rumble: this documentary is about my own life experience and how I was rescued from this cult.

I am just asking that if you think or feel that you are right, then please hear this side of the discussion. I was sincere as an advocate & member of the cult, I also sincerely believed that I was a woman trapped in a man's body; sincerely wrong, but sincere nonetheless.
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The Child Sacrifice or Sacrifice For The Child.

3/25/2023

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This is NOT a social battle or even a political one, it is a Spiritual War! This is pure wickedness enveloping children & adults alike. Legions! Yes legions of demons are oppressing these individuals while the world sits idly by promoting, encouraging & celebrating the depravity!

If you care about your children, friends, family members, coworkers, and society/people in general, then you MUST stand against this #lgbTQia #TransQueer #Gender #Cult that is marching all over any morals, values or constitutional rights established.

It Must Be Stopped.

I fear that this is nothing compared to what is to come as we know this cult is just laying the foundation for the next "movement" to rise up; the pedo-movement. We have already normalized promiscuity, porn, sexual immorality, bestiality, sado-masochism and that list goes on.

The next item on the agenda is to separate the children from their parents "rule & reign". Releasing them into the care of a system that is hellbent on destroying them mind, body & soul. THIS IS REAL FOLKS!! This is why it is imperative that your children be removed from the public government school system YESTERDAY!!!

You canNOT put them on that little yellow bus to hell, to go be trained by the gods of this world, and then be surprised when they come home confused, dejected, sexualized or riddled with oppression, depression, anxiety etc etc. It MUST Stop now!

I hear parents and concerned citizens all of the time, asking "is this ever going to let up?" or "what should I do?" or making statements like, "well, it can't get any worse" or "there's nothing I can do". NO! It's not going to "let up". The ONLY thing you can do is GET INFORMED & GET INVOLVED! It WILL get worse! Do not allow this cult to make you feel weak, worthless or like you are powerless. That is it's goal.

Honestly, there are only a few options at this point. When it comes to the public government school, the ONLY option is removing the children. That is the ONLY option! Teachers and other cult members have already stated on social media that they do not care what the school admin says, they definitely don't care what the parents or community think, feel or want because they will do what they want with "THEIR KIDS"!! 

Your children have become theirs. So what are you going to do about it? Are you going to yell, scream, make noise and complain? Sue them? Argue with them? Make demands? Go to school board meetings? Library meetings? Townhall meetings? Senate or Legislative hearings? 

The problem with all of the above is that we are doing this with a genuine hope for change. THERE WILL BE NO CHANGE except that it will get worse. We should keep doing the above, but just to bring awareness to what is going on and helping others see the dangers. But that is all. 

Educating, protecting and keeping your child safe from any type of oppression is not easy, especially in this world. The system is set up to keep people busy at work, have many expenses, live check to check, be dependent on government aid, medical care or food stamps. It is set up this way to help the process of getting it's talons into your children. 

It is a sacrifice to homeschool your child. But either you MAKE sacrifices or your child IS the sacrifice. It is either one or the other. There is NO MEDIUM! 

350 Educators of K-12 Schools were arrested on child sex crimes in 2022. Statistics say that 60% of rapes go UNREPORTED! If 350 were arrested, how many were not caught or reported? Does that mean that these teachers & school staff defending the right to target, desensitize & sexualize children could be the UNREPORTED? That is the question! 

Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth? Galatians 4:16

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David AKA Alphabet Man ~ All You Need To Know

3/19/2023

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David has a powerful testimony of deliverance from a very dark life; including prostitution, sex-trafficking, gender confusion/transgenderism (dysphoria), molestation, rape, drugs, alcohol, gambling, and so on, as well as being healed from his deathbed with full blown AIDS, no immune system, infections in his brain & blood, severe progressive Osteoporosis, diabetes, etc..

David was sexually abused from around the age of 6. He contracted HIV/AIDS at age 14. And by age 37 was on his deathbed. That was in 2009.

With his body weakening in a hospital bed that was placed in his home, David knew hell was what he deserved for all of the horrible things he had done to people in his lifetime. He cried out in desperation. Afraid to die and not wanting to go to hell. David hit rock bottom.

David was so far gone that the doctors sent him home to die, giving him less than 3 months to live and putting hospice in place. One day he woke up with an incredible Peace, what he calls his "Moment of Grace". A Peace like he had never experienced. He was free of the gender confusion, the addictions and the weight of sin that held him captive! David still believed he was going to die, but he was no longer afraid of death. He was at Peace. David began praying that through his death others would come to know the Truth as well.

David's bones got stronger. He no longer used a walker to get around. He was standing up straight, he hadn't done so in almost 2 years. Then the doctors told him his diabetes was mysteriously gone. After that, the HIV/AIDS virus was no longer detectable in his system. His immune system returned. Chronic Major Depression, bipolar, anxiety, PTSD and many other "diagnoses" were gone. 

You don't want to miss hearing David tell of the Freedom from any & all addiction, strongholds and even habits, as well as how, in this process, he was allowed to see, with clarity, that he was created male and could never change that; that he could be a gay man and still seek GOD.

Since his "Moment of Grace" and being rescued from the cesspools of gender dysphoria, the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Cult and all of the lust-filled activity, David tried for many years to deny his same-sex attraction existed, he even came up with some ​believable theories of how it didn't really exist.

But it does.

And as David accepts this innate part of his design, he has learned to give GOD Glory for all of the amazing & miraculous work HE has done in, with and through his life. David now sees clearly that one can be same-sex attracted (gay), and still remain in a right relationship with GOD!

David knows the difference between "denying self" (lusts of the flesh) and denying his own innate & individual design. He now knows and accepts that he is same-sex attracted (gay), sees this very clearly, and accepts it as a part of his design, not of his fallen nature.

David says, begin quote ~ "I know what I've said in the past about same-sex attraction, I was wrong. Same-sex attraction happens to be a part of some of our design, and not our "old sinful nature". This part of our design is no different than those who are opposite-sex attracted. It's simple.

​You can be same-sex attracted and be a Christian. You can be in a same-sex relationship and be a Christian. You can be opposite-sex attracted and be a Christian as well. Understand this, we become Christian by choice but we are attracted to whom we are attracted by design."

David goes on to tell us of his legal & criminal past, "Allow me to be transparent; because I recognize the power in transparency. I have always been very open about my past criminal record, ​and have never tried to hide anything.

My case went as follows...

I befriended a woman, also a drug-addict, who abandoned her 12 year old son at my apartment. When I called Child Protective Services and reported her, word quickly got back to her that I called CPS. The grapevine in the lgbTQia+ TransQueer world is malicious. She came and got her son that night.

The next day I was greeted by two detectives who asked me lots of disturbing questions. These men were disgusted by my appearance as a transgender woman. They accused me of exposing myself to the 12 year old boy who was left in my home. The boy had obviously been coached as what to say because these detectives truly thought I was guilty, or maybe they just wanted me to be because I was a man with breasts. They didn’t arrest me at that point, but they did tell me not to leave town. So, I left town.

I went back home to Philly. I now had a warrant for my arrest for “lewd and lascivious acts in the presence of a minor". Sadly, the law says if you run then you must be guilty! That's not always so. Philadelphia welcomed me home with charges for prostitution.

I was twenty-two years old, I was so confused about my own identity, lost, broken, trans-identified (gender confused) male living as a "woman" and I was HIV+ and a victim of molestation and sex-trafficking.
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I was eventually caught and sent to jail. There I became a “commodity”.

Florida warrant: I was extradited to a county jail in Orlando, Florida, where I was not only a commodity, but the new “girl” in town. I was used & abused there as well. Eventually I was released on probation.

The court case went like this: Upon my arrest, my family retained an attorney for me, who came into court, saw me, and told me to take "the deal" (the plea offer) that the state was offering. She said if I took my case to trial, I would lose without a doubt, because I looked like a woman but I was a man. 

This attorney told me that from my appearance and proclaimed transgenderism alone, there was no jury or judge who would look at me as being innocent. In society’s eyes I was a man who had breasts and was a “sexual freak of nature,” a “pervert.” Imagine an attorney saying that today! She would've been disbarred and maybe even brought up on charges. The lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Mafia would've went after her bigtime!

Anyways, for those who do not know what a plea offer is, it is an admission of guilt without having to say the word guilty. So I took the plea offer and accepted 10 years probation for a crime I did not commit, “a lewd and lascivious act in the presence of a minor.”
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I was arrested on a probation violation for drugs, prostitution and robbing a gas station. I was also charged with failing to register (comply) at the time as well. During the sting operation it was discovered that my "boyfriend", who was caught with me in our hotel room, was 15 years old. This did not look good for me as a convicted sex offender and I was given the option of another charge or "cash in" my probation for state prison time, I chose the latter. I chose to have no probation in place of prison time.

I have since then come to the conclusion that, even though I was not guilty of the original crime that I was charged with, I was indeed guilty of the crime itself in that I was always chasing after teenage boys, and young men in general, and luring them into my own dark web of sexual gratification and deception.
 
I made the choice to become that monster, and I know it was a choice, because I would eventually choose not to do any of those things. I also watched how common it was for children to be “recruited” (another word for targeted, desensitized, sexualized, groomed, victimized & criminalized) into that dark movement of deception.

This is what is happening now. This is why I am airing my own dirty filthy laundry, in hopes of others waking up to this delusion of rainbows & unicorns. We see it in schools, libraries and anywhere that youth gather.

I was far from alone in this. I don't say this to shift blame or make excuses for what I've personally done, but to make people aware of what is going on within this bright colorful rainbow love cult. A very large portion of the dark lgbTQia+ TransQueer Gender Cult engages in the sexualization of youth, just look at what's happening today with all of the perversions being allowed into classrooms and libraries. "Groomed to groom" is it's forte'.

This is one reason so many young adults today are on the streets, on drugs, drinking, being abused, used, entrapped in porn, sex-trafficking, prostitution, stripping, all types of immorality, etc.

I attracted & seduced teenage boys by the way I looked and dressed. I enticed them with sex & material things. This was the behavior that I experienced. This is what I saw & learned from the depths of the lgbTQia+ TransQueer movement. It stares us all in the face right now as we see the drag-queen shows in schools or being held & advertised as "child friendly" or "for all ages" when they're not suitable for most adults! The prideful & sexual marches of perversion that people bring their children to bear witness to!

What is wrong with us!!

The majority of this movement has been luring/seducing youth into that dark world for decades; using them up sexually, profiting off of them, passing them around and then discarding them like common garbage when they are of no more "use" to them. The end result leaves many of these victims as alcoholics & drug addicts, on some type of psyche medications, prostituting themselves because they have no self-love or worth, as well as getting into the porn industry & sex-trafficking rings. They've been "groomed to groom."

Yes, I was guilty of perpetrating this very thing. And no, I am not afraid to tell the truth because this is why I've made it through the storms and survived that world/cult. For such a time as this! 

​The difference from then (1980's & 1990's) and now is that this lgbTQia+ movement is IN THE SCHOOLS, IN THE  CURRICULUM, IN THE LIBRARIES, IN THE BOOKS, IN THE MATERIALS, IN THE MUSIC, IN THE MOVIES, IN THE WEBSITES and anywhere that youth gather or go.

I got out of prison in 2006 the last time. I have not so much as had a traffic ticket since. I am a new man. I am a grateful, honored and Blessed man to have been given a second chance to right the wrongs and expose this darkness that is trying to envelope youth! NOBODY should endure not one iota of what I was forced to endure!
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I wanted to give comment to a few of the false slanderous comments being made by a small group of extremists that go out of their way to post my sex offender registry status all over the internet and wherever they can find an audience... this is a very weak attempt to silence me. THEY hate when I speak out and expose their wicked ways! 

​I was NOT charged with multiple counts of ANYTHING. The ONLY reason I am a "lifetime registrant" is because I came from another state when I moved to Maine. The reason my charge is listed as "sex offense against child fondling" is because the statute number for my charge in Florida is different here in Maine. That's it. 

I am NOT deemed a predator, nor do I have ANY restrictions on where I can go, who I can be around or things I must adhere to like probation, therapy, etc... I am FREE and have NO STATE GUIDED RESTRICTIONS or RESPONSIBILITIES except what any other law abiding citizen has.

My past is always being used as a way to attack or discredit my testimony and silence me. I can NOT be silenced and I will not be silenced. I will keep exposing the agenda of this cult until it is stopped!" end quote
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A Few High School Student Reviews...

3/14/2023

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I am blessed with the chance to speak to 2 to 4 classes of high school students a few times a year. This blessing does not come without the sad downside of seeing so many youth just completely brainwashed & indoctrinated into the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult.

I speak to them via Zoom and I have been doing so for a few years now. Let me explain; this class is a "Radical Political Science Class" and is only for seniors that have already had their parents sign waivers/permission slips as the speakers for this class are labeled as "radical", "extreme" and "political". I will take those labels any day if they grant me the opportunity to speak truth to the most vulnerable and targeted of the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Cult.

After each semester or time period and all of the speakers have had the chance to present to the classes, the students then write "reviews" on each speaker and give their final opinions of what the speaker said and how impactful the speakers were. Here are a few of the reviews I received yesterday from the last 3 classes I presented to;

Student 1 - "The lgbtq agenda holds a negative connotation, and is often used by politicians and homophobes. The agenda is considered an indoctrination movement, meant to brainwash kids into becoming gay or trans. It was easier to see where David was coming from considering his experience with the lgbtq community. I understand why he is against minors undergoing gender affirming surgeries and meds. I do agree with his limits on how far gender affirmation should go on minors."

Student 2 - "David's concerns about the effects of promoting pro-lgbtq agenda is understandable. I disagree with some parts of his assertions and agree with other parts. There is a lot of conflicting information about the effects of puberty blockers hurting brain development & function. I agree the media is biased and any opposing views are taken down and considered hate speech. This has become even more of a problem in the last few years. One point David brought up that I can understand is the part about gender dysphoria and how all the problems before transitioning do not disappear after transition."

​Student 3 - "I am worried about kids transitioning. I think David is right about underlying issues existing that can cause kids to transition. I see a lot of this in middle school kids who are just figuring out who they are. I know many middle schoolers who are constantly trauma dumping and telling all of their struggles to anyone that will listen, including strangers. Before I knew anything about them they were telling me they were depressed, had anxiety, trauma and suicidal tendencies and they kind of joke about it sometimes. Then I see them again and they are changing their name and pronouns and are now trans but they continue to tell me about how they are still struggling with all of the other things. While becoming trans may seem like it helps them feel more comfortable and accepted, I'm worried it is not going to actually help any of them but just make things worse for them. This fits along with what David was saying about transitioning not getting rid of their problems." 

Student 4 - "David was believable more than other speakers because he lived it and knows it better than I do. He told us how he had issues before transitioning and how he had the same issues plus more after he transitioned. That should be a warning sign for anyone under 18 to wait until they confront their other issues first. I feel sad for my friends who believe they are not what they are."

So, while that is only 4 out of 20+ students, I would have been happy and satisfied with only one because as long as one received the truth that means seeds have been planted for other students as well. I am excited for the shift I see taking place. It is imperative we keep this truth telling up and disregard the haters, nay-sayers and ones who are sincerely brainwashed/misled themselves.
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#DeTransAwarenessDay

3/12/2023

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Sidewalk Steve (NH) and myself holding the #DetransAwareness Flag!

Hello Everyone! What a day to be locked out of social media posting, as today is "Detransitioner Awareness Day". 

As one that transitioned, or was TRANSed, as a youth, I can say that being free from that darkness & confusion is such a huge blessing! 

When I went to New Hampshire last week to testify at two hearings on house bills HB619 & HB10 I heard so many pro-trans individuals say that "detransitioning is rare" and that "detransitioners are few and far between". 

While I was able to get up and testify that we (detransitioners) are NOT rare and that there are thousands of us, what I noticed is that I was the only one there. We need more detrans people to speak up and let it be known that the entirety of the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender cult is dangerous & deadly as it targets, sexualizes & grooms the youth to be its minions & martyrs.

Puberty is NOT a disease. It is NOT a condition. It does not need to be halted or paused. Gender is a concept created by a mad-scientist pedophile, Dr John Money, who repeatedly engaged in pedophilia as he made it his business to defend pedophilia as well. 

If we cannot see how this movement has infiltrated our government, schools, medical society, culture and beyond then it is only because we do not want to see it, and have been blinded to it. 

#DetransitionersUnite ~ If only detrans people could unite and come together regardless of our beliefs, orientations, thoughts or politics. We could be so powerful as we destroy the lies being spewed by the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Ideology Cult.

I just wanted to take this time to say #iamDetrans to all of you since the Twit suspended me for the week LoL

In HIS Precious Grip, David 

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New Hampshire Politics & Realistic Troubles ~ HB619/HB10 #NHpolitics

3/8/2023

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I testified at two hearings yesterday in New Hampshire. It was a very emotional day for many of us. One of the bills I was there to speak on was HB619 and it would keep anyone under 18 from being medically transitioned. I will also attach a link to each of the bills at the end of this blog entry.

The other bill was HB10 which was for parental rights. Yeah, really! I could not believe that we were even there to consider parents NOT having rights, but not to my surprise, there were plenty of people that opposed the bill that would give parents the right to know what is going on with their children every step of the way while in the care of the "educators" as they call them.

I watched as boys & girls and men & women went to the microphone and regurgitated incorrect statistics & standardized responses that were pushed onto them as factual. But most importantly, I watched individuals voice their thoughts & feelings in defense of their new "family", the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Cult represented by the rainbow and in defense of their new "identities" that their new "family" provided them.

As I looked around the room, a few hundred I'd say, I was devastated. I saw so many different stages of my own journey represented in these confused, controlled and conned young men and women. Boys in different stages of confusion and chaos. Girls that want to be boys suffering in an existence that has yet to give them fulfilment. Men and women living vicariously through the youth they are claiming to protect.

There were men dressed like women that called themselves transgender women. One of those men I know for a fact is not gender dysphoric, but he is AGP, an autogynephile, which is a man that is sexually aroused by wearing women's clothing or fantasizing about himself being a woman. Sadly, the average person doesn't know what being AGP means, or if being gender dysphoric is the same as having a paraphilia or fetish. 

I wonder if there is a serious tug of war within the trans-community because gender-dysphoric trans persons may not want the AGP, fetishists or those who suffer from various paraphilias to be able to make the claim on being "trans". It is a slippery slope when it comes to the Trans-Umbrella. See Blog Post ~ The Rainbow Umbrella

I had never used the men's room with women before yesterday, it was odd to say the least. Made me wonder how uncomfortable, or odd, it seems when youth are forced to endure opposite sex individuals in their own private spaces like the bathroom, locker rooms, spas or showers. I would think that it would be much more traumatic for youth than for adults. To add to their trauma, there is the lingering stigma that tells them if they speak out against this movement then they will be humiliated, singled out and who knows what else would happen to them. It is a seriously sad situation. 

I remember watching three young men, that were in various stages of transitioning, and thinking that I could see myself in each of them at some point in my confused reckless teenage years. One was so uncomfortable in his own skin that he kept as much of it as possible hidden. He had gloves on that hid his hands, except the fingertips were cut off of the gloves to show his painted fingernails. He had a mask on over his high necked sweater so all that was visible were his make-up laden eyes and some of his rouge covered cheeks. Any skin that was able to be seen was also covered, with tattoos or jewelry.

How much more do they have to holler? How much louder must they scream? Who is going to hear them? Most importantly, who is going to help them? The ones with all of the power have the real control over each of these misled misfits. The powers that be do not care if you vote for parental rights, you will still be kept in the dark. They don't care if you vote to stop medicalizing the children, they will still trans your children! Believe that.

A case-manager told a story yesterday about a school helping a teenager to be placed on wrong-sex hormone therapy. The committee asked her to submit proof. I do know that teachers and counselors have already taken it upon themselves to invite Planned Parenthood and other organizations into their private offices where wrong-sex hormones and puberty blockers have been pushed on little kids like predatory drug-dealers. All done without parents consent or knowledge. It happens, this I know for a fact!

A father spoke in full drag, claiming to be transgender, as he talked about his children who were also enveloped by this emotionally driven choo choo train. Hop on board kids! Daddy is going to take you for a ride, straight into the dark abyss of defiance and rebellion to all that is. My heart was twisted and my stomach turned as he made these claims. All I could think was, "Doesn't anyone else actually HEAR what he is saying?!!?! This is child abuse!!!" But nobody else seemed to care, or maybe they didn't care enough to react and be deemed a bigot, hypocrite or transphobe.

We cannot please everyone. Nor should we. We will not all agree on everything. Nor should we. We must all know there are moral laws by which we live. Whether you believe in GOD or not, we all have a sense of what is right and what is wrong that dwells somewhere in us. I know that the weight of oppression has caused that to be buried deep in some of us, while others have been brainwashed to believe there is no moral authority in their life except what their cult thinks or feels is appropriate or not.

I claimed to "feel like a woman" for over 20 years. That was not only absurd but impossible. Having never actually been a woman, I could not possibly know what a woman "feels like". Then there is the fact that being a woman is not a feeling but a reality. A biological reality. A male can never be a woman no matter how many pills, shots, procedures or surgeries he has. He will always be a man.

One young man said he didn't "feel like a man" because he was a woman and so he had to fix the outside to match the inside. To bad for him that he didn't have any adults in his life that cared enough to tell him that he could only "feel like a man" because he is a man. He has over 6,500 chromosome markers in his body that make him distinctly male.

​I felt the pain, confusion and the anguish in those hearings yesterday. It reminded me that each of those individuals is being exploited by one of the darkest movements this world has ever encountered; the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Ideology Cult is, in fact, the largest mass of political wickedness that has ever attacked in this way. Never has a more unstable, unethical, gross and uncaring hateful experiment ever been subjected onto children.

Targeting children, preying on them, sexualizing, butchering, desensitizing, devouring, victimizing, mutilating, demoralizing, grooming and blatantly abusing children. Doing this right in front of the rest of the world while we all sit back, complain, blog, protest, march, yell, whine and pussyfoot around. It is time for some serious action. It is time to unite, regardless of whether or not you agree on someone else's religion, sexual orientation, beliefs or politics. Stand as one, push back and stop this genocide of mentally ill youth that are being exploited because of their mental disorders, comorbidities and desire to be seen. 

Honestly, the absolute only answer right now is to take your child out of public government run schools and homeschool! There are solutions for those who truly want to save children. There are also a lot of excuses out there for those who aren't so true in their claims. 

As a detransitioner (EXtrans) individual that was targeted and groomed, that also became a groomer as well as a criminal, addict and mentally unstable man in distress (not in a dress, in distress, although I was in a dress~smile) I am making myself available for parents and adults that wish to ask questions, hear testimony or talk about solutions in the moment as well as in time. 

Two amazing documentaries available right now are #RESIDUE and Affirmation Generation: The Lies of Transgender Medicine. 

#RESIDUE (available by clicking here) is focused solely on myself and how I came out of that delusional world of transgenderism and rainbows, as well as exposing the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult for the grooming predatorial movement it is. 

Affirmation Generation: The Lies of Transgender Medicine is an original feature-length documentary on medical ethics examining current medical practices with irrevocable impact upon vulnerable youth.

Below please find the links for each of the House Bills I went to testify at as well as video testimony from each hearing

Video Testimony From HB619 ~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkk6GLJIwBY

Video Testimony From HB10 ~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i9X6Vlbsef0 


HB619 ~ https://legiscan.com/NH/text/HB619/id/2637539

HB10 ~ https://legiscan.com/NH/bill/HB10/2023 
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Safe In The Cage

3/1/2023

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I found some early journal entries from 2009/2010; fresh out of the world of perversion and confusion. This speaks of when I went from the county jail to prison.

Journal Entry 09/15/2010 6:09 am- "I didn't mind getting in trouble and being sent to "the hole" because in lockdown I could stay in bed all day and my meals were brought to me. "This is the LIFE!!!!" I thought to myself on more than one occasion in the filthy six foot by nine foot cement room while laying on my inch thick worn out piece of foam that they called a mattress that rested on the steel cold frame. But that was the county jail... then I finally went to PRISON!

It was a whole new ball game, these were real convicts and had a lot more time to do than the guys I was used to in the county jails.

My first week in prison I had been 'coerced' to engage in many sexual activities with more than a handful of guys, not to mention the ones I was doing every chance I got just for kicks. It wasn't so
much that I minded being raped, it was almost nothing at that point. I knew how to lay there, take it and move on to forget it.

Sad existence to be "immune" to rape, to believe it "okay or "normal" to be forced to be the subject of some random man's lusts & pleasures. Especially afterwards, to not report it but to just take a shower, "wash it away" and move on.

I always wanted more. I really just wanted to be loved or at least HELD & APPRECIATED. But if they couldn't handle that then it was time they went to the canteen and took care of me from that point forward. I became a hoe on the inside because I was a hoe on the outside. It is all I knew. And it was what I thought 'survival' to be about.

One time that haunted me for years was after I was transferred to another prison and I punched a corrections officer in the face for calling me "queer". (It used to be a very derogatory & insulting slur)

After hitting the officer (I know, wrong. But I was emotionally driven by thoughts & feelings w/ the mental disorder of being trans) I was put into a shower stall naked, having already been beaten & stomped by the officers (not to mention "gassed" every few hours... that is tear-gassed). Then I was placed in a cell with 2 "lifers" (convicts serving life sentences).

Both of these men were in lockdown for at least a year each. I was totally, literally & horrifically used & abused. Severely! Rescued by chance. The one "friend" I had made there, a nurse from the main compound, just so "happened" to fill in for the usual nurse that day and had to bring medications to an inmate that was in the lock-down area they had me in.

She saw me laying on a mat, on the floor, beaten down, bruised, out of it and completely drained and she demanded I be brought down to the main compound ASAP. She probably saved my life. It was nothing nice and I was reminded of those horrible 3 days & nights for many, many months afterwards with aches, pains and terrible nightmares.

I was transferred out of there right after I was rescued by the nurse, and informed I COULD file a formal report OR I could forget it ever happened, be sent to another facility, get all of my "gain time" (something the prison system gives you (or takes away) for good behavior) and get out of prison sooner than later.

Of course I opted for the "get out of jail EARLIER card". I did my time but surprisingly I actually felt bad when it was time for me to go home. I wasn't quite sure I wanted to leave. I think I was "safe in the cage"! *End Of Entry*

My Commentary Now: Safe In The Cage. That is a term when someone is in prison and they get so used to the safety/confines of having their meals, accommodations etc... all taken care of that they don't really have a desire to be "free".

In prison I was the one that got all of the attention and was the closest thing to a woman they could get. That was my mentality and the way I thought. Sad, I know. I am so very Blessed to be able to look back and see the man I am today! Wow!!

The tears I cry as I post this blog! I hadn't thought about that scenario in a very long time. GOD Kept me safe in HIS Grip even when I was denying HIM and ignoring HIM.

It amazes me at times.
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John Money: The Pro-Pedophile Pervert​That Invented The Term/Concept Of "Gender"

2/6/2023

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John Money: The Pro-Pedophile Pervert
​That Invented The Term/Concept Of "Gender"

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“Gender identity” is a hot-topic today and has become a focal point of not just social discourse, but legal policy and procedure. But few people know the concept’s disturbing origins.

Dr. John Money, a sexologist and psychologist from New Zealand who practiced at the infamous Johns Hopkins Hospital, is considered the first to coin the terms “gender identity” and “gender role,” describing the “internal experience of sexuality” and the “social expectations of male and female behavior” respectively. These concepts are prominently featured in trans activism today and are used to bolster claims of “gender fluidity.”

John Money’s history is a dark & controversial one, the details of which are often neglected when discussing his "contribution" to the popularization of “gender vs. sex” theory.

Like many sexologists, Dr John Money believed pedophilia was a harmless sexuality which, when practiced “properly,” led to the child suffering no harm. In fact, Money’s theories on pedophilia were so sympathetic that, to this day, his work is prominently featured on the website of the North American Man-Boy Love Association (NAMBLA)– one of the longest-established pederast rights groups.

In the 1990s, Money allowed himself to be featured in interviews with Paidika, a pedophile psychology journal named after the Greek adjective for “boyish,” and has been used by pedophile rights activists to refer to the younger partner in a pederastic relationship.

In a 1991 interview for the journal, Money is quoted as saying: “If I were to see the case of a boy aged ten or eleven who’s intensely erotically attracted toward a man in his twenties or thirties, if the relationship is totally mutual, and the bonding is genuinely totally mutual, then I would not call it pathological in any way.”

Money also noted that he “never” reported any pedophiles to police, even those who were actively abusing children due to his belief that adult-child sex was normal and “often beneficial.” But Money’s views on pedophilia hardly touch the darkest and most depraved facets of his history, those being reserved for the case of David (born Bruce) Reimer.

Born in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada in 1965, Reimer was the victim of a botched medical circumcision when he was 6 months old. The procedure sought to address a urination problem Reimer was experiencing, but instead left his penis mutilated beyond repair.

Reimer’s parents took him to Baltimore to see Money in 1967, concerned about his future sexual and romantic prospects. At the time, Money was known for his research with intersex people, and was considered a pioneer of gender reassignment.

Money recommended Reimer be subjected to a genital reconstruction to create a vulva and suggested to his parents that raising him as a girl would be in his best interests. He was convinced that “gender” could be socially learned, and Reimer provided an ideal subject through which to test his theories due to having a twin brother, Brian, that could be used as a male control.
Throughout his early childhood, Reimer was never told he was born a male, and he was subjected to hormone therapy early on in order to lead him through a female puberty. Reimer was regularly seen by Money, who tracked his progress in an effort to demonstrate his theory that gender was malleable.

During check-ups, Money would subject the twin boys to disturbing experiments. They were forced to replicate sexual intercourse with each other, touch and inspect each other’s genitals, and watch pornography. Money would show the twins photos from smut magazines and “explicit” sexual photos of kids. He would then prod them about their sexual arousal and question their attractions. The children were also expected to comply in front of audiences of as many as 6 other adults, and some reports state Money also took photos and videos of the children engaged in rehearsed sexual activity. At the time, both of the twins were just 6 years old.

Later testimony from one of the twins stated that Money had “two sides” to his personality — one when their parents were around, and one when they were alone. When alone with the children, Money was abusive and got irate with them for refusing to perform for him. In a later statement, they both recall fearing he would “whup” them if they did not do as he asked and strip their clothes.

As David Reimer aged, he became increasingly resistant to seeing Money, and begged his parents not to force him to go to Baltimore for check-ups. Despite feminizing hormones and surgery, Reimer identified as a male and refused to believe he was a girl though he had never been told he was born a boy — a catastrophic rebuttal of Money’s theories on gender.

By the age of 14, Reimer was experiencing suicidal ideations and refused any further contact with Money. He demanded the truth from his parents, which they eventually told him in 1980.

Despite that, Money proceeded to declare his experiments a success, and his “findings” were used in later studies to justify genital surgeries imposed on some intersex children with ambiguous genitalia.

Both Reimer and his brother would take their own lives, with Brian committing suicide via drug overdose in 2002 after a life-long battle with schizophrenia, and David shooting himself in the head in 2004 at the age of 38. Their parents stated that they attributed their son’s deaths to the trauma imparted upon them from Money’s methods.

Despite the disturbing origins, Money’s legacy lives on in the concept of “gender” as a unique and quantifiable element apart from sex. It also lives on in the existence of gender identity clinics, the first of which was established by Money at Johns Hopkins in 1965.

While proponents of trans ideology sometimes misappropriate Money’s abusive experiments on Reimer as “proof” that a person cannot be forced to live as a “gender” they are not — they gloss over the critical reality that Reimer’s experience demonstrates a person cannot be something they are not, full stop.

No amount of female hormones, clothes, surgery, or sexualization made David Reimer act or think any differently than his very male self-promulgated. Even a synthetic, half-cocked feminized puberty did not change David Reimer.

Reimer was introduced to the bells and whistles of another “gender identity” from the earliest moments of his life as an infant and was still a male — a total refutation of gender activist demands that “trans kids” be provided chemical interventions as early as possible for more “successful” transition outcomes.

In fact, the results of a 30 year-long study conducted in Sweden also confirm this fact. Performed by six distinguished researchers from the Karolinska Institute, the study found that “transwomen” demonstrated male patterns of criminal behavior which persisted even after a full medical and surgical transition. It also found that surgical gender interventions did not make any difference in the suicide rates of transgender patients.

These results have largely been disregarded by trans activists, who continue to insist that a man who injects himself with estrogen and wears dresses is no longer a man and does not “think” or “act” like a man. It is here — in the face of a total lack of evidence — where trans activism then takes on its religious qualities, and begins deferring to magical gendered brains and souls, the solution to which seems to be a therapist and an exorcist, respectively.

John Money was a pervert. He was a child abuser. He was a pedophile sympathizer, as well as a pedophile himself. And if a movement finds its origins in a man like John Money, it is time for that movement to do some (gendered) soul searching. It is time for homosexual (LGB) men and women to stand up against the lgbTQia+ TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult and break away from this type of group-think and this dark cloud of perversion that has enveloped so many of us over the years.
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Being Emotionally Driven By Thoughts & Feelings...

2/1/2023

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I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have physically or verbally attacked someone because they threatened my own delusions of being transgender. Whether it was a truth-teller or hate driven, there was a deep rooted fear in walking away from the only "community", the only "family", the only "security" I had ever known up to that point.

Growing up I knew I was same-sex attracted, but I also recognized (even as a young child) the stigma that lingered over being gay. There was a guilt, shame and condemnation that came from culture, society and even the church. Isn't it something how an entire population of people (homosexuals) can be singled out and threatened by people that are sickened by or prejudice of them? Oh wait, that has happened many times in history but we don't consider it the same thing when it comes to same-sex attracted individuals.

I ran away at 14 years old and lived on the streets of Philadelphia. I prostituted my body to survive and quite simply because I had been sexualized as a child which caused me to become a sex addict. I was also taking female hormones and finding myself in & out of juvenile detention, and later adult facilities as well. When I took to the streets it was the lgbTQia Rainbow Cult that took me in, embraced me, fed me, taught me how to survive on the streets and brainwashed me. This movement became every aspect of my entire life; it determined where I lived, where I went to hang out, where I shopped, all of my friends, my politics, and this movement even determined which of my own blood would talk to me or not. That rainbow was a powerful sigil/sign/symbol.

Like most cults, the rainbow movement enveloped me and taught me that anyone that disagrees with me is a threat and they need to be silenced. Ever notice how angry and emotionally driven those that support the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Gender Cult are? Because their entire identity is driven by thoughts, feelings & deception. When someone told me I was a man, I would attack. When someone offered to get me away from that life I knew, I would attack. When someone said a derogatory word about "my community", I would attack. Sometimes it was a verbal attack, but mostly they were physical ones.

The 1st thing I learned on those streets was by an older transgender that told me, "never waste your time fighting cause you might lose. Just cut them, and go for the face or throat when you do." That was my introduction to the "if you wanna survive" lessons. But I remember the 1st time I did actually cut someone, to this day 35 years later it still haunts me because it scared me, sickened me and changed me. I was on the subway with a very flamboyant gay friend and there were two young guys also on the train that were mocking & taunting him with ignorance and derogatory words.

My friend told them to "stfu", which caused them to come over to where we were standing. One of them said something like, "only whores hang out with faggots" and that made me tell them I was a man too. That escalated things and one of them got in my face. I had a razor in my hand and before he hit me I swung the razor. I will never forget how I thought I missed at first, but when I raised the razor to swing again I saw something I'd never imagined before; his face opened up and began bleeding. I was scared, disgusted and on my way to becoming a very different person.

I don't usually tell the details of these types of situations when telling my own story, but sometimes these details are needed for a more in-depth understanding of what we see happening today in abundance. I understand why these emotionally driven people (like TRAs) act and react the way that they do and so I find myself able to deal with them in different ways. Nobody is the same, and so you cannot always deal with the next one the way you did the last one. But you can at least understand that the individuals trapped in the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult really are victims, even the ones that are victimizing others.

I am not making excuses for them, nor am I excusing ANY of their behavior. I am simply offering a more in-depth understanding of why there is so much anger, frustration, angst, hatred and emotionally driven responses. I was wrong for all that I've done to others just because they didn't understand, but I wonder how many of my victims understood that I was a victim as well.

There is a victim mentality that is just as encouraged & promoted as the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult's deceptions on gender, education, love, community, religion, sex and so on. This cult is the largest most deadliest mass of political wickedness we have ever seen, and it has gained more momentum in the last 5 years than ever before.

While I understand my faults and even though I fell for the trans deceptions for 20+ years, I now know my worth as an individual and that I can be a gay man that is not associated or enveloped by the Rainbow of Shame "community" or its political agendas, false identities and sexualization. There really is Peace, Joy and Happiness found outside of that cult. I am a gay man that dissociated from self out of fear of being same-sex attracted and other underlying issues.

Being deceived is built on the false foundation of thoughts & feelings. It is being emotionally driven in fear and rage. Being trapped in this false identity of transgenderism is one of the most dangerous places to dwell. I am not asking anyone to give anyone else a free pass just because they're a victim or deceived, but just be mindful of who and what you are really dealing with when you decide to confront this movement or any of its minions.

​Many that are marching for and demanding extra/special rights now are also victims of serious crimes and have serious mental disorders like dysphoria, Autogynephilia, pedophilia, rape, internalized homophobia, sexual trauma, personality disorder, depression, suicidal tendencies, self hatred, PTSD and so on and so on... 

Keep Pressing On. Stand Up & Speak Out. Tell Truth. Be Firm.

​Just Remember... I was once one of those unhinged crazy TRAs... BEFORE I embraced my true identity and accepted myself for who and what I am.

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The Trans-Identity Illness VS Being Same-Sex Attracted

1/25/2023

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When I grew up there was a stigma over being gay (same-sex attracted). There was guilting, shaming and condemnation in culture & society. I would later learn that the same stigma lingered within the church as well. I recognized I was gay from as far back as I can remember. I also grew up in the time where the "T" was added to the "LGB" acronym, placing my own delusion into the mix as a "sexual orientation" which fed my mental disorder even more.

Let me attempt to clear up some false beliefs & lies about being gay, which is a sexual orientation, and being trans, which is, by definition, a mental disorder. I am more than qualified to speak on this as I am a gay man that once suffered from gender identity disorder aka confusion.

My father took his life before I was born, which means I always longed for male affirmation. I was also molested as a young child. Neither of these things "made me gay", being gay is a part of my innate individual design just as being straight is a part of other peoples' innate individual design. It actually is the exact same thing, and falls under the definition of a sexual orientation.

Being fatherless and then being molested several times by different men, along with the stigma of being same-sex attracted, caused me to dissociate from who I was and begin identifying as a girl. It was frightening for me, a child, to be gay, which causes internalized homophobia. These are just a few of the reasons that children fall into this deception of being trans-identified. The list of underlying issues is very extensive and once those issues are dealt with, or addressed, the individual almost always receives clarity and comes out of the delusion of being trans.

I spent 30+ years in the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and 20+ of those years as a "transgender-woman". I remember how I sincerely believed (or wanted to) that I "felt like a woman" but that was absurd, not to mention impossible, because I couldn't possibly know what a woman "feels" like having never been a woman. Being a woman, a female, is not a thought or feeling, it is not an emotion, and it is not a wish. Being a woman is many things, but most of all (which is why I could never know what it is being male) it is biological.

Being a woman; each woman has over 6,500 chromosome markers that make them distinctly female, not to mention the DNA, having ovaries, having the ability to produce eggs or to bear a child, and that extensive list goes on as well. Being a woman is not even something that I, as a man, can capture in this blog post so I will not even attempt to do so. Just needed to mention the most important things that science has proven cannot be changed with any amount of pills, shots, surgeries or procedures.

​Let me give a breakdown of my own personal life knowledge & experience within this cult as one who also suffered from the dysphoria of not wanting to recognize my own identity as the male I was created to be. I was very young when I began to dissociate from being David. My mother did not give in to my delusions, nor did she allow any of the "transitioning" to take place under her roof. I ran away from home at age 14. I lived on the streets of Philadelphia. I was immediately embraced by the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult and I became a 14 year old homeless runaway prostitute, thief, drug addict, alcoholic and sex addict. I began wrong-sex hormones at age 14, which I bought on the black market (on the streets) from the same guy I bought my weed & cocaine from.

I was also HIV+ at age 14. The HIV/AIDS virus was claiming the lives of many at the time, and many of my "friends" & associates were dropping like flies from this disease. I became a very angry and "void" teenager that had no sense reality. The wrong-sex hormones I was taking made me an emotional wreck, as I'd go from happy to sad to violent to suicidal at the drop of a dime. Was I suicidal as a young trans person? Yes. I was suicidal as an adult trans-identified person as well.

Did those feelings of suicide, depression and angst go away once I was accepted and my thoughts & feelings were validated? No. Truth be told, I was suicidal for so many years that I only know that I attempted it a few times, thought about it a lot, and also used those thoughts & feelings to my own advantage to "get my way" or to be pitied. There is a very powerful victimhood you possess when you suffer from mental conditions like dysphoria/confusion, depression, dissociative disorder, etc... We express our "victimhood" by lashing out at self & others.

​I was in and out of juvenile detention where I was raped, jumped and tossed to & fro. I learned how to become a commodity, yes a piece of property that could be bought or sold, traded or used, abused and disillusioned. As an adult I was in and out of jail and prison, where I had already learned my place and my value. There weren't any men, regardless of their delusion/mental confusion, being placed in women's facilities back then.

By 37 I ended up on my deathbed with full blown AIDS, infections in my brain & blood, boils covering my body, no immune system and a viral load that was the highest my infectious disease clinic had ever seen. I also suffered from Osteoporosis (commonly known as an elderly womans disease, from the hormones I'd taken) and I couldn't walk without a walker.

I was sent home to die. A hospital bed was placed in my home and hospice was put into place. As I waited to die I received clarity that allowed me to see my confusion for what it was, and to start dealing with my underlying issues. As a Christian there's a lot more to that aspect of my story, but you will have to read or listen to my testimony for more. I was healed. I completely pulled through and had a new lease on life, as David, the man I was created to be.

I accepted that being gay was "a sin" long before I had ever went to a church building or read any of the Bible. It is something that we learn, or are programmed with, through culture & society as the guilt, shame and condemnation are evident in words, deeds and actions that surround us on a daily basis from as far back as we can remember. So when reality struck me and I recognized I could never possibly be a woman, and that I was created & born to be a man, I had already threw being gay in the same box as being trans. My mind wasn't able to decipher the facts of logic and common-sense because I was programmed already.

When I detransitioned I had already accepted the lie that being same-sex attracted was sinful & wrong, so I tossed it in the same box as the trans-identity confusion and moved on. The feedback and attacks from the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult were absolutely severe and everyone I knew turned on me like I was a vicious enemy. I couldn't go anywhere I had previously went because I didn't support the rainbow cult and those trapped in that delusion were aggressively angry & hostile towards me. All of my so-called "friends" had cut me off and/or threatened me.

So I ran to the church. I knew that God had saved me from death, so I figured that was my only option. I wanted to belong, especially after having every aspect of my life ripped away just because I was no longer confused about my own sex and because I didn't want to support that dark rainbow movement that had abused, used and confused me from such a young age. I spent years denying my own same-sex attraction because I sincerely believed it was a sin in God's eyes. Until I studied the Bible myself and found otherwise. That info can be found here.

I am now very much able to distinguish what a sexual orientation is and what a mental disorder is. Somewhere along the line we (all nations) have begun to promote, encourage and even celebrate mental confusion and disorders, as well as a movement that has become the largest, most deadly political cult this earth has ever seen. The lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult is hellbent on sexualizing people (especially children), medicalizing people (especially children), confusing, using, abusing, indoctrinating, bamboozling, tricking and wreaking havoc on the minds, bodies and souls of anyone that gets in its path. This cult is targeting, preying on and devouring children while we sit around playing nice, making sure we use the correct pronouns and in fear of offending someone because they suffer from a mental disorder!

I know that it has become a scary time for sure, and this cult has gained a lot of ground legally and politically. But fear not! Truth will always conquer the lies that this cult is embedding in the minds and hearts of those it envelopes. To understand more of how this cult has gotten to this place of being legally protected by politics and fear, please read RAINBOW UMBRELLA.

While I am a Christian, that should not deter anyone from reading or sharing this blog post, or from reaching out, inviting, corresponding, etc... this battle can be won, but we must all be ready, willing & able to reach across the aisle and lock arms with those we do not agree with, that do not live like us, that do not look like us or that do not believe what we believe... for the children!

I know what it is like to be sexualized as a young child, molested, used up, passed around, profited off of and then tossed away like garbage when there's no more use. I have also seen this vicious cycle within the lgbTQia TransQueer Rainbow Cult for 30+ years. I know the delusions of being a man that believes he is a woman. I know the perversion of many fetishes that envelope the member of this rainbow cult. I also know the freedom & peace that comes with clarity & healing. So please, feel free to reach out. I ain't going anywhere. 

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Sex Offender Woes... Jobs, Relations, Hurdles, etc...

1/21/2023

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As a registered sex offender I have experienced some serious situations of discrimination, bias and prejudice. This article is not being written for pity, but to awaken people to what is happening in the name of "law, justice & morality". I read an article Jobs For Sex Offenders and I was kinda moved by some of the responses from the public as well as shocked about how misleading the article itself is. 

While it is definitely difficult for sex offender registrants to find employment outside of laborious work that some people are not physically capable of, it is also wrong for people to be denied employment because they committed a crime. The world does not believe in Redemption, this I know better than most. The church also has a problem truly believing in redemption as well, and it shows through word, deed & action.

First, I'd like to share my own comment I left on the website/article Jobs For Sex Offenders. And then I would like to address actually being on the sex offender registry and being a man that has been Redeemed and made free from so many different addictions and strongholds that it almost seems like the the path of Righteousness is not always the best path in this world, even amongst the churches of our modern day.

My response/comment to the article linked above...

Sadly, this is something that is everywhere. I live in Maine and have been hired and fired within weeks once the background check was complete (North Energy, Haffners, Tradewinds, Ramada, Giri Hotel Management, McDonalds, Wendys, Circle K, Irving, etc). I have been hired and went to orientation (Kmart, Dollar Tree) and terminated before actually starting work. I have also went to interviews and was asked about my criminal history (Mardens, Renys, Walmart, Dollar General, Freshie's, Shell, etc.) and when I was truthful I was denied the opportunity. 

I was a powerful voice of redemption for the church for many years, and have had a ministry that carried me for years as well. But the ministry can no longer carry me and I cannot find a job anywhere. In the last year I have lost 3 jobs due to my background check. My charge was 25 years ago and I took a plea deal as a very young confused trans-identified person. I have not been in any trouble since I was released from prison, and had, like I said, a pretty successful ministry for many years. But still I cannot find a job because nobody will hire a sex offender; which is all some people see when they look at me... even those who know me and know I am not a threat.

I am not able to do landscaping, warehouse work or construction since I damaged my body severely with wrong-sex hormones for many years while I was confused about my sex. I have applied at almost every single company on the list in this article and have either been denied because of my background or denied once the background check was provided. I even had a manager that was fighting for me to keep my job because I was such a good employee, but HR (The Corporation - North Energy/Haffners Oil in MASS.) decided I was expendable because I was a sex offender. It is so sad and frustrating for so many.

Do we have a drug dealers registry? A wife beaters registry? A murderers registry? There are many on the sex offender registry that do not belong on it. While some do belong on the registry, is it really necessary for those not deemed as threats? I am ONLY a lifetime registrant in my state because I came from another state. We need to do better for people who are trying to take care of their homes, families and themselves but are constantly being kicked down by "the system" itself. Some of us do not wanna be dependent on the government to take care of us!

THAT is my comment/response to the article linked above. Now please give me a few more moments of your time while I address being on the sex offender registry and also being a man that has been Redeemed and made free from so many different addictions and strongholds. Let me also say that my being on the registry has never been a secret or hidden from anyone at anytime. Once I began writing about my life and experiences it has been out there on the world wide web, as well as in print, for many years... around 2010 or so.

I went to speak at a school board meeting as a Christian man that had suffered "gender" identity confusion as well as wrong-sex hormone therapy because I felt it was my duty to be a voice of reason and clarity for those who weren't getting the "whole truth" from the schools or educators of today. I was attacked for being on the sex offender registry, not because of my own personal life story of being gender confused. I even made the local news - ARTICLE HERE 

I can say one thing about being in the local news, not to mention having my face & information plastered all over the internet by several trans-rights activists, leftists & even by the right - I am NOT a democrat OR a republican, as I am a Christian, at least the reporter for www.TheCounty.me was to the point and did not add any nonsense or "extras". 

The original charge was in 1995, and I was 22 years old, "gender" confused (transgender), sexualized, daily drug & alcohol user and a sex addict. I was a prostitute as well. Lived as a trans-identified "woman" for 20+ years. I do not deny what I have done, nor do I have a problem stating that I was not guilty of the actual charge/case I was convicted on. BUT, I was guilty of "recruiting" teenage boys into that dark world of sexualization and promiscuity. 

My case went as follows...

I went to Florida to "start over". While there, I befriended a woman who abandoned her 12 year old son at my apartment. When I called Child Protective Services and reported her, word quickly got back to her that I called CPS (The grapevine in the lgbTQia+ TransQueer world is malicious). She came and got the boy that night. The next day I was greeted by two detectives who asked me lots of disturbing questions. They accused me of attempting to molest the 12 year old boy who was left in my home; a boy whom I’d fed and treated as if he were my own family. The boy had obviously been coached as to what to say because these detectives truly thought I was guilty. They didn’t arrest me at that point, but they did tell me not to leave town. So, of course, I left town.

I went back home to Philly. I now had a warrant for my arrest for “lewd and lascivious acts in the presence of a child" because the law says if you run then you must be guilty! That's not always so. Philadelphia welcomed me home with an additional arrest warrant for prostitution.

I was 22 years old, I was a confused, lost, broken trans-identified (gender confused) male living as a "woman" and I was HIV+ since age 14. I was a victim of molestation (several times over) and a victim of that type of deviant behavior many times over as a teen runaway living on the streets of Philadelphia. I was eventually caught & sent to jail. There I became a “commodity.”

Florida warrant; I was eventually extradited to a county jail in Orlando, Florida, where I was not only a commodity, but the new “girl” in town, in the end I was used & abused there as well. Eventually I was released on probation.

The court case: Upon my arrest, my family retained an attorney for me, who came into court, saw me, and told me to take the plea offer the state was offering. She said if I took my case to trial, I would lose without a doubt, because I looked like a woman but I was in fact a man. The attorney told me that from my appearance and proclaimed "transgender" status alone, there was no jury or judge who would look at me as being innocent. In society’s eyes I was a man who had breasts and I would simply be a “sexual freak of nature,” a “pervert” in their eyes.

For those who do not know what a plea offer is, it is an admission of guilt without having to say the word guilty. So I took the plea offer and accepted ten years probation for a crime I did not commit, “a lewd and lascivious act in the presence of a child.” 

I have since then come to the conclusion that, even though I was not guilty of the particular crime I was charged, I was indeed guilty of the crime itself in that I was always chasing after teenage boys and luring them into my own dark web of sexual gratification and deception. Not to mention I had a "lover" that was 15 years old when I was 22 years old, so I eventually was able to see what I had done, or took part in, while I was so lost & confused.
 
In other words, I was a monster. But I made the choice to become a monster, and I know it was a choice, because I would eventually choose not to do any of those things. I also watched how common it was for children to be “recruited” (another word for molested) into that dark movement of deception.

I was far from alone in this. I say this not to shift blame but to make people aware of what is going on. The majority of the dark lgbTQia+ TransQueer Gender movement engages in the sexualization of youth, just look at what's happening today with all of the perversions being allowed into classrooms and libraries. This is one reason so many young people today are on the streets, doing drugs, drinking, being abused, used, and entrapped in porn, sex-trafficking and prostitution, stripping, etc.. because they are victimized by a movement and then revictimized by culture & society that promotes, encourages & celebrates the very movement hellbent on destroying their minds, bodies & souls.

My story is not as uncommon as many would think. Even for the one that has not suffered from gender confusion, being on the sex offender registry is something these individuals deal with every single day of their life. While many folks are happy that sex offender registrants have to struggle, some aren't happy without participating in the struggle and making it more difficult for sex offenders to live normal productive lives. Honestly, I don't know where I would be without my Faith because I have been discarded by culture, society and the church many times over.

Is this a call for me to stand up for these individuals? To get some sort of justice and equality for the very ones that society, culture and the church have deemed as threats or unredeemable? Am I now called to stand for those who have been caught in a web of deception and crime? Some of those on the sex offender registry do belong on some sort of list, but do they all? In my situation, I am only a lifetime registrant because I came from another state. In the state I live in I would've only been a 10 year registrant with the actual charge I was convicted of, but because I came from another state that automatically made me a lifetime registrant.

Each of the sex offender registrants are also charged a yearly or quarterly fee (depending on the state of residence) for the "upkeep of the SOR website". This is also unfair and unjust for men & women that have done their time and have no type of probation or ongoing parole. There is a class-action lawsuit there alone because offenders/registrants are told if they do not pay the fee then they are in violation. But in violation of what? They've already served their time!

​When I reached out to several lawyers, law firms and even the ACLU about this class action suit and this wrong targeting sex offender registrants there were absolutely no responses! Not one of these lawyers that call themselves wanting to fight injustice could see a sex offender as a person that wrong could be done to. And maybe some of them did not want to represent a group of people that culture, society & the church have already deemed as worthless or not worthy of help, protection, rights or even employment.
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How to See Trans People Come to Faith & lgbTQia Cult Members Be Made Free

12/31/2022

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As a former transgender "woman" and rainbow cult member, as well as someone who currently ministers to hundreds trapped in this delusion, I want to provide some practical insights to help each of us engage with those participating in that darkness. Yes, that photo above is me... before & after!

​• Due to the openness and growing number of those involved in the lgbTQia TransQueer Gender Rainbow Cult, it is becoming almost commonplace to meet very confused & delusional people in one’s own household, extended family, friends, neighborhood, or even the workplace. Because of this reality, we must establish relationships with people who do not look like us, do not dress like us, do not act like us, and do not believe what we believe.

• We must all understand that being a part of the lgbTQia rainbow cult is not like any other situations or strongholds. This cult determines every single aspect of the individual's friends, actual location of residence, family dynamics, political views, emotions, thoughts and even their feelings. Therefore, while discussing life or the GoOD News, as well as “gender” and sex, be careful not to condemn them and attack their identity because you will be guilting, shaming and condemning their whole world and all that they know. Their identity is this cult! It is deeply rooted and you alone cannot "save" anyone. Just be a witness.

• Do not dodge the truth. When building intimate relationships, there can be an overemphasis on desiring to be liked. Whether you find yourself discussing lgbTQia TransQueer Movement topics in the first conversation or not until later, stand firm & be truthful as you communicate. Don’t let your own bias interfere with your representation of The CHRIST in Word, Deed or Action.

• Be the example. As I strive to be an example in word, deed and action, I have watched the Lord touch very deceived and trapped people, giving them a desire for something more. I've seen many trans-identified people come out of the delusions that once held them captive. I have also seen many same-sex attracted (gay) men & women come out of the rainbow cult and embrace their identity by recognizing that they don't need to be a part of the lgbTQia flag flying rainbow cult.

• Remember, the natural man does not receive things of the Spirit right away because they are foolishness to him (1 Cor. 2:14). Do not try to force-feed the natural man things that are only spiritually discerned and might take time to comprehend. Instead, be available to take a walk, to help with a task, give a ride, fix something, provide a listening ear, or go to lunch. In short, be available. Intimacy is an investment. People are NOT projects! There is no "end goal" here, just be available.

• Remember to communicate GOD’S Love, but also explain that just knowing that GOD Loves you does not get anyone into The Kingdom. Only HIS mercy and HIS grace do that! We do not have to obtain GOD’S Love—HE already loves us from beginning to end, eternally—but we must obtain HIS Mercy. And receiving HIS Mercy will only happen by humbling ourselves before HIM in faith and in repentance.

• Do not beat anyone up over one or two things they are doing. Before getting saved, transgenderism was not the only thing I needed clarity on; I was promiscuous, a prostitute, a criminal, on drugs, alcohol, deranged, deviant, perverted and a whole lot more. We come to faith understanding that by nature we are sinful, which distorts every facet of our being. Therefore, salvation requires turning from all sin and turning to JESUS The CHRIST to save us!

                                           For further information go to www.ibelongAmen.com
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A Former Transgender Opposes Transgender Rights ~ Amicus Brief From March 24, 2021 ~ Gloucester County School Board VS Gavin Grimm

12/29/2022

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**This was written 3/24/2021** This week I am joining an amicus brief that is being filed in the U.S. Supreme Court to urge that Court to overturn a decision of the Fourth Circuit about so-called “transgender rights.”  The case is Gloucester County School Board v. Gavin Grimm.  The Fourth Circuit decision being challenged requires public schools to allow persons claiming transgender status to use the bathrooms, locker rooms, and showers of the opposite sex. 
 
As a person who lived for decades as a transgender person, I feel compelled to set out my views.  The Plaintiff in this case started this litigation when she was in high school, and has grown up in the shadow of the litigation she began.  I know something about this type of situation, and this type of person.
 
First, my heart breaks for this young lady!  I have reviewed the decision in that case and can relate.  But my comments are more general, not particularly applicable to her, but certainly to  others who are in her place.
 
All too often people in this situation have been traumatized by something or someone so much so that it feels best to do whatever she can to not be herself.  She is seeking attention. The attention received by being able to use the nurse’s bathroom (single use bathroom) was not ‘attention getting’ enough and so she now demands (literally) that she be able to use the boys’ bathroom.
 
If she is successful in this, then students will know that they can make demands, regardless of the security or well-being of themselves and others, and that if they yell loud enough and write articles for the ACLU, then they too can have their demands met and be the center of attention.
 
No matter how many times that a girl says she is a boy, that does not change her DNA or the over 6,500 chromosome markers that make her distinctly female!  It is not genitals here..... there are over 6,500 markers that make this young lady female!  She can mutilate her genitalia but she can never change her DNA, chromosome markers or the fact that she was created to be, is & always will be a female.
 
There are tens of thousands (maybe hundreds of thousands) of “Gavins” in this world that have felt like they no longer wanted to be who, and what, they were.... they denied their identity and identified as the opposite sex.... they transitioned and are now seeking a way to DE-transition and return their bodies to some sense of normalcy after the horrendous invasion of puberty blockers (experimental drugs) and cross sex hormone treatment.
 
Placing a female in the midst of teenage boys that are driven by their own hormonal rages and lusts could very possibly put this young lady in harm’s way.  And to wait and see if something happens would place this court and the school liable should there be any type of attack or trauma.
 
Men do not belong in women’s bathrooms or girls’ locker rooms due to the very nature of danger those women & girls would be placed in should this “right” be abused.  Why would we place a young girl who is suffering from gender dysphoria (confusion) in danger by placing her in a boys’ bathroom?  Why would we promote, encourage or celebrate her mental delusion/disorder?
 
Those with this problem need intense therapy — not to be placed into a situation that will only create more confusion, pain and possibly death by suicide (or worse).  She is a female and must be recognized as such or the court, the ACLU, her parents, etc... will all be doing her a huge disservice.  Not to mention they should all be held accountable for her future sufferings, because she will suffer in the future as long as her disorder is not treated.
 
This young woman has a condition that needs treatment, not one that needs to be encouraged which will further damage her.  Gender dysphoria is a condition, a mental health disorder.
 
This doesn’t even account for the boys who are insecure, confused, and seeking attention as well... what about their rights to privacy and a place where they won’t feel judged or ridiculed by female students being present?  The bathrooms & locker rooms have always been that refuge for those boys.
 
I believed (sincerely) myself to be a female for well over 20 years.  I lived as a “trans-woman”.  I truly and purely believed to my core that I was a woman trapped in a man’s body, until reality visited me, and I recognized that my identity crisis was due to traumatic events in my childhood.
 
It was easiest for me to escape reality of who, and what, I was by pretending to be someone or something else.  As a man that has detransitioned and been made whole again, I can truly say that I am so happy that my family, school, healthcare professionals, and those around me did not accept or promote my confusion.
 
Who knows if I would have survived the horrible effects of puberty blockers (experimental drugs), cross sex hormones, procedures, etc., had I been misled by all of those who were meant to protect me, like this young lady is being misled and used as a pawn for a political and legal argument.
 
The entire argument is really not about the bathroom; this young lady is crying out for attention and for someone to come to her rescue and help her, while the ACLU is using her suffering to promote and push a political and legal argument this young lady is being mentally, emotionally and politically abused in the name of “inclusivity”.
 
I don’t know all the facts of this case, but my heart breaks for this young woman, and others like her, who are a victim in so many ways. Let’s pray the Supreme Court does not pile on, thinking it is being compassionate, only to victimize her further.
 
David of i Belong Amen Ministries.  
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Potent Enemy...

11/13/2022

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The most #potent #enemy, I find, is the average #conservative #Christian. Imagine that. Christians hating on a man who has actually lived the lie they pretend to despise. Why would conservative christians hate a guy like me? For the same reason #liberal #christians do...

They hate on me because I remind them of their own #sin, their own confusion, disbeliefs, depressions, anxieties, and traumas. I am a #representation of the #Truth and the #healing that comes out of the #confusion & #delusions of being #trapped in #transgenderism. My life hits too close to home for them. All of them, on some level!

I also represent a Truth neither of them are willing to admit. For the conservatives; they can't stand that I've discovered the Truth about same-sex attraction NOT being a sin. For the liberals; they hate that I have discovered that nobody is born in the wrong body! 

http://www.ibelongamen.com/homosexuality--the-bible.html

It is a lonely place; no "church" building to go to; cannot sit with folks that believe I am an abomination because I have embraced my own same-sex attraction and I sure cannot sit with folks that promote, encourage or celebrate the rainbow of shame #lgbTQia #TransQueer #Gender #Cult - gender confusion, murder, sexualization & promiscuity.

So glad I have The LORD Almighty and the family that HE has given me. AMen!!

​Also, I am so excited for the unity that will be exampled on Saturday 11/19 on WBCI FM radio!

Saturday, November 19th, 2022 - 3pm-4pm EST - Simple Faith Radio Show WBCI 105.9 FM https://lifechangingradio.com/program/simple-faith-dale-carlson… You can tune in on the radio or on the website and click LISTEN NOW.
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Great Faith

9/9/2022

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I have Faith. I have Great Faith!

I know that GOD Almighty Loves me and that HE Loves me so much that HE gave HIS Only Begotten Son, in the flesh, The Man, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, to become the ransom for each one of our sins and I know that HIS HOLY GHOST dwells within me.

Still, there are times when I do not feel like HE is with me. I can be skeptical and cynical. There are times when I want a tangible experience, so The FATHER works to stretch my Faith in things unseen. I marvel at the many ways HE has met me where I am, especially today.
 
When I first began my walk I was in "therapy" for chronic major depression, PTSD, anxiety, bipolar, sleeping disorders, etc…. While in session one morning it just came upon me that I did not need this anymore, all that I needed was in HIM & HIS Way. I asked the therapist if she wanted to pray, she said no, I then told her that I was done and no longer would be needing her services. I hadn't been on the medications for months, because of Faith.

I slept better than ever and from that moment on having given it all to HIM, I have not suffered from any of those “illnesses” again because HE let me know that they aren’t illnesses (diseases) at all, but symptoms & results of being in, and of, this world.
 
Now I am not saying that anyone should dump out their medications. What I am saying is that is what I did and that is what worked for me. I was also diagnosed with diabetes & had been on medication for it for years, that also went away, along with many other "sicknesses". This is what I did & this is how HE has worked in my life. Full blown AIDS? Gone! Fibromyalgia? History! Osteoporosis? Another one bites the dust! Hmph!
 
GOD Almighty is ready, willing & able to do anything! Anything! Above & Beyond whatever we could even imagine! I realized that HE was my safety net & that HE would see that I not only had a testimony that could help introduce others to HIM, but that I was also a living, walking, breathing testimony of HIS Healing Power, able to stand again, balanced & secure.
 
Our One True Living GOD shows HIS Love to us in many ways. HE affirms us & HE speaks to us in very personal ways. How has GOD affirmed you? How has HE made HIS Presence known to you? How has HIS Son, JESUS The CHRIST, spoken to your heart? Look & listen, HE is there.
 
Dear FATHER, Thank YOU for YOUR Patience with me and Love for me. Thank YOU for all that YOU have put in my path to help me find spiritual health as well as physical health. Please forgive me for my weakness of Faith and teach me to Trust YOUR Word rather than my thoughts & feelings. Please continue to stretch my Faith in things unseen. I Pray to YOU, FATHER GOD, in YOUR Son's Mighty & Precious Name, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.

Reading 2 Corinthians 5:1-10... ​
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Powerless...

9/7/2022

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In The RESIDUE Guide we have touched on questions like, “Have I learned to beware that, without JESUS The CHRIST, I am powerless?” and also “Have I learned to fear sin's power?” and “Have I determined to make GOD Almighty, and HIS Way, the top priority in my life?”
 
Today, I ask this question; “Have I come to a deep awareness that I cannot do this alone?” Can you say from your heart, "I need GOD’S help and the help of HIS People?”
 
First, let’s think about GOD’S help. Do you pray earnestly every single day? Do you spend time in thoughtful, daily study of HIS Way? Do you worship The FATHER through, in and with your life; Word, Deed, Action? When tempted, do you let fear engulf you, or do you reach out to your Mighty, Magnificent & Able FATHER in Heaven with the confidence that HE can and will deliver you?

Do you really believe that JESUS The CHRIST will make you Free and are you trusting HIM to do just that? Will you stay with HIM no matter how long it takes? Are you working hard while remembering that without HIS Blessing all comes to nothing? Do you ask The Holy Spirit to keep you from sin in thought, word & deed every morning and thank HIM for your victories each night?
 
What about the help of HIS People that are called by HIS Name? Have you reached out to Trustworthy brothers & sisters asking them to hold you accountable? Accountability is very important for all of us, but more so for those battling with addictions, strongholds and the lusts of the flesh.

Have you developed healthy, transparent and intimate relationships or are you still waiting passively for friends to spring up out of nowhere? Have you let fear keep you from being open with others about your struggles? Are you not just looking for what you can get out of relationships, but also looking for who you can help, knowing you will be helped as you help others?
 
Has your understanding of being powerless led you to see the folly of trying to be a ‘Lone Ranger’? Has it sunk in? Do you get it? If not, then please reach out to The FATHER in prayer and to your brethren for some guidance.
 
FATHER, We know that it is the enemy that makes us want to forget our need of others and even of YOU! We are so slow to Trust, to ask, to reach out and to reveal our deepest & darkest secrets, ugly warts and all. Please allow YOUR Holy Spirit to help us to face the Truth and to keep reaching out in Faith, trusting YOU to reach back leading us to others who will also support us in our struggles and in our times of need. We Praise YOU and Glorify YOU Oh Mighty GOD. Thank YOU for all that YOU are. We Pray in The Powerful & Precious Name of YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST.  Amen.
 
Reading Psalm 122:1-9 this…
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Prioritize...

9/6/2022

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One way to measure our walk is to see the place that GOD Almighty has in our lives.

A time management expert pulled out a one-gallon, wide-mouthed Mason jar and set it on the table in front of his students. He produced about a dozen fist-sized rocks and carefully placed them, one at a time, in the jar. When no more rocks would fit inside he asked, "Is the jar full?"
 
Everyone in the class said, "Yes." He said, "Really?" He reached under the table, pulled out a bucket of gravel, dumped in some gravel, and shook the jar, causing the pieces of gravel to work themselves down into the spaces between the big rocks. Again, he asked, "Is the jar full?"
 
"Probably not," one of the class answered. "Good!" he replied. He reached under the table, brought out a bucket of sand, and started dumping the sand into the jar. It went into the spaces left between the rocks and the gravel. Once more he asked, "Is the jar full?"
 
"No!" the class shouted. Again, he answered, "Good!" He grabbed a pitcher of water and began to pour it in until the jar was filled to the brim. Then he looked at the class and asked, "What is the point of this illustration?"
 
One student said, "The point is that no matter how full your schedule is, if you really try hard you can always fit some more things in!"
 
"No," the expert said, "that's not the point. The point of this illustration is that if you don't put the big rocks in first, you'll never get them in at all. If you fill your life with lesser things, you'll never have the time you need to spend on the big, really important stuff (the 'big rocks')."
 
And so it is in our walk as a Child of GOD. If our walk is something that we work on after everything else has been taken care of, there is little hope that we will ever be pleasing & acceptable unto HIM.

GOD Almighty must be number one on our list of priorities and our schedules should be worked around HIM, not the other way around. See this as a vital part of learning to live for HIM, and we could
all be well on our way!

Is GOD Almighty the “big rocks” in your life? Will HE be? Pray with me...
 
Dear FATHER GOD, I'm sorry I've put so many things ahead of YOU and of becoming what YOU Created me to be. Please forgive me and grant that I may make my likeness to YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST, in making YOUR Ways and my assignment the priority in my life. Oh FATHER, YOU sent YOUR only begotten Son to become the ransom that I might be Holy; please help me walk in The Way so I may be in a right relationship with YOU. Please grant me the Courage and Perseverance to press on and press forward with YOU as my top priority! I Pray in The Mighty Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
 
Read Psalm 90:1-17
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Discovering Our True Identity...

9/3/2022

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I read a story about Joseph Stalin where I learned some very interesting facts. Stalin's real name was Iosif Dzhugashvili. He was born & raised in the Russian province of Georgia. His father was a drunkard, a failure who would play on his son's sympathies, and he was also very abusive. His mother was strict, very religious, and did domestic work. He was an only child and a good student. He had almost no role models from which to develop a positive identity.
 
At his mother's urging, he entered a Theological Seminary to study for the Russian Orthodox priesthood, but, like most of his fellow-students, had no use for the dull, restrictive life there. Instead, he read a novel, The Patricide, by Alexander Kazbegi, and was deeply impressed by a character named Koba.

Koba became his god, giving his life a new meaning. He wanted to be a second Koba, a fighter and hero to whom others would look up to, he even called himself "Koba", wouldn't allow others to call him anything else, and kept that name well into his thirties.
 
This was an important step in the journey of Iosif Dzhugashvili's becoming one of history's most murderous tyrants. His failure to find a positive identity and the adoption of a fictional, revolutionary one led to a life of total and utter destruction that destroyed many others' lives.
 
How can we develop a positive identity that will Bless us and make us a Blessing rather than curse us and lead us to lives that destroy? What better person could you identify with than our LORD and our SAVIOR, JESUS The CHRIST? Let us strive to follow HIM, to imitate HIM and to be in The FATHER'S Will.
 
You will gradually find the identity that was intended for you and become the person you've always longed to be. This is the road to your true identity! Will you walk it?
 
FATHER GOD, Thank YOU that I do not have to look to novels, movies, textbooks, perceptions, imagination, curriculums or TV programs to find my identity. My problems in my childhood may have robbed me of the identity YOU intended for me, but I do not have to be deprived forever. I will look to YOU and to those who Love YOU in Truth and learn from them. Please help me, Guide me & Strengthen me! Thank YOU for all that YOU are. I Lift YOUR Name On High. I Pray to YOU, in The Precious Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
 
Reading 1 Corinthians 10:31-11:2…
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I Got This! ~ Uhhhh. No Ya Don't!!

8/22/2022

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Some people stumble into sin. Some fall. Some jump. While others play around on the edges, seeing how close they can get to it without doing it, until they plunge right back in. Poof~Boom~Bam! It really is that simple.

The very first thing we must do, when coming out of the world, out of sin and away from our vices, addictions, strongholds and old habits, is admit that we are powerless, and that our lives are unmanageable without JESUS The CHRIST.

One way to test whether you have done well with this or need to give it more work is to see how you view the world. Do you look on it with dread or with longing? Do you miss it or are you overjoyed to be out of it?

Some people, secretly longing for it rather than fearing sin, try to see how close they can get to it without an actual fall. They maintain friendships with those who have chosen to continue in sin and who try to tempt them to do likewise. They participate in immoral, unholy & spiritually unbeneficial things. They go to movies & watch television programs that are ungodly and full of what The Word demands HIS Own to steer clear from. Foolishly thinking, "I can handle this now," they play around the edges of sin, only to be amazed & shocked when they fall in and then are stunned at how difficult it is to get back out! Really!?!??!!

Outside of JESUS The CHRIST, we are powerless over sin and the god of this world! Some of us never really grasp this concept. This teaches that to try to get near sin without committing it is as sensible as trying to see how near you can get to a grizzly bear without becoming its next meal!

The one who has accepted that they are powerless and has developed a sense of the terrible, destructive power that sin can exercise over their life, stays as far away from it as is humanly possible.

If you don’t want to fall, or stumble, then stay away from those people, places & things that will stir in you a sense of false boldness to see how close you can get to the sin without actually sinning. That's just a simple & practical way of stating the reality that Freedom speaks to. 

Accept that you are powerless outside of JESUS The CHRIST. Do this over again thoroughly, thoughtfully & prayerfully. Remember you're powerless and remember your emotional unmanageability and beware.

"Put ye on the LORD JESUS The CHRIST, and make no provision for the flesh, to fulfill the lusts thereof" ~ Romans 13:14.

Oh Precious FATHER, Will we ever learn? Please teach us, by YOUR Holy Spirit and through YOUR Word, in context, how helpless we are against the flesh, the world and our adversary just waiting to pounce & devour. Please teach us to abide in YOU and to keep as much distance between ourselves and sin as is humanly possible.

Allow us to learn from YOUR Holy Spirit rather than from bitter experience. Thank YOU, FATHER, for all of the Blessings YOU bestow upon us all. I Praise & Glorify YOU and I Pray in The Precious Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.

​Reading Romans Chapter 13….
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Two Steppin'

8/14/2022

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Have you ever heard of "two-stepping"? No, not dancing. It's a term used in recovery to describe people who discover their powerlessness and the insanity of the life they've been living and, without working towards actually rediscovering their true identity in JESUS The CHRIST, they rush to carry The GOoD News to the world.

The results are usually disastrous. The two-stepper, who has not gotten to a place of True Freedom, fades and then falls away, leaving those to whom they've spoken to disillusioned and even more skeptical than before. We must be careful not to make this very mistake.
 
We must have had a True Spiritual Awakening before we begin carrying the message to others. JESUS The CHRIST has laid before us a sure way to come to HIM and to receive the Hope of Eternal Salvation. Believe. Repent. Be Baptized. Surrender. Live Accordingly. That's Freedom.
 
We must remember that we have not "arrived" until we obtain "the measure of the stature of the fullness of The CHRIST" (Ephesians 4:13). For all of us, there is still plenty of room for improvement!  
 
In carrying the message to others that are hurting & lost we often find the deep wells of Joy in being an Overcomer. While it gives the Joy of a closer walk with GOD Almighty, thrilling self-discovery, and ever-increasing Freedom, it can, at times, be painful, discouraging or maybe for some, just plain boring!
 
What will keep us going when we hit those dry patches where our soul can become parched? It's the Joy of seeing others find the Truth and grow in the Grace & Knowledge of The Will of GOD Almighty. Are there ever disappointments? Of course! But the rich rewards of being used to Bless others in life-changing ways keeps us going until we reach our goal!
 
Oh, Heavenly FATHER, Thank YOU for this day and for all of the Mighty Blessings, great & small, that YOU have so graciously and abundantly bestowed upon each one of us. I truly need YOUR Joy! I thank YOU for not pampering my selfishness by giving it to me to keep all to myself. Thank YOU for leading me out of myself and into YOUR Likeness as I reach out to seek & to reach the lost. Encourage me. Bless my faltering efforts. Grant me the grace of patience. Then, please grant me YOUR Joy. I Praise & Glorify YOU. I Pray to YOU in The Mighty & Powerful Name of Your Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
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The Blame Game...

8/2/2022

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What is everyone's favorite game? The Blame Game!

While it's exceedingly popular, it's also very dangerous. It keeps us from facing reality and from making things right.

How does it work?
 
When things go wrong, we feel guilt, shame, frustration & fear and as we get this rude awakening, we realize that we really are powerless. These unpleasant emotions give rise to a strong fight or flight response. But how can we fight? Feeling hopeless is terrible, so we make ourselves believe it was someone else's fault. We then focus our anger on them.
 
We can blame our parents ~ they didn't meet our needs or raise us right.

We can blame our friends ~ they aren't there enough for us.

We can blame our recovery process ~ it's not working.

We can blame satan ~ "the devil made me do it".

And then, when we've run out of others to blame, we turn on GOD. Why did HE allow this to happen to me?
 
As long as we're angry, we feel powerful. So, as long as we come up with all sorts of reasons that we're not at fault and that someone else is because they should have fulfilled their purpose better, we feel more competent than they. Seeing their guilt clearly lets us be superior in our own eyes. Feelings of power & superiority are very pleasant feelings.
 
The pleasure, however, is deceptive. It is built on a lie--the same lie that satan (the father of lies) used when he rebelled. He just kept on blaming GOD, and he tempts us to do so as well. If he can get us to abandon GOD instead of returning to HIM in repentance, we may drown out our painful emotions for a moment, but eventually we will be consumed with anger, bitterness & discontent, unable to face life as it is. We will carry an ever-increasing burden of unresolved emotions, further damage our strained relationships with others, strengthen our compulsions until they totally enslave us and lose all sense of GOD & HIS Love for us. That's part of the price we pay to play the blame game.
 
Don't take anyone else's inventory, their faults are theirs; concentrate on your own because you have enough of them. Find your own defects, then confess & make amends for them. Then walk the road to the Glorious Liberty of Freedom with the children of GOD, your brethren. Start today!
 
Dear Father in Heaven, forgive me for blaming others, especially YOU, for my failures. Help me to be honest--to search only within--that I may see reality clearly and find YOUR Forgiveness & Strength to change my life that I may become more & more like the person YOU Created me to be. I Pray to YOU in The Mighty & Precious Name of YOUR Son, YESHUA, JESUS The CHRIST. Amen.
 
Reading Psalm 37:9-29 this morning….
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You Little Liar...

8/1/2022

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Parent: You Little Liar! Where'd you ever learn to lie like so much?? 

Child: From you. 

A few years ago I was standing in line at the store. In front of me was a young father & his young son. The boy was eyeing the dinosaur action figures, so dad told him to "grab one & let's go." 

Then dad said to the boy, "play with it til we get home, but then we have to wrap it up & put it under the tree so mommy won't know."

He told his son to not only keep something from his mother but to flat out lie & it was okay. Is it okay to deceive anyone? No matter the reason?

It was no problem for that man to tell his young son not to let his mother know that he bought him the toy, and that he could play with it now but then it has to get wrapped so mom thinks it was just a gift someone left for you. Really?!?!! Are you serious!

In a few more years when that young boy lies about something to daddy, and is caught red handed, what will dad say? Dad will get mad and ask him where he learned to lie like that. The boy will be able to truthfully tell him, "from you dad"! 

There is nothing alright with telling a child that it is okay to be deceitful, to lie or hide anything from anyone but especially from his, or her, parents!! When a parent pits a child up against the other parent like this it is a very dangerous line that will eventually get blurred when he begins to lie about everything to everyone! 

But don't we do the same when we lie to a child and tell them that "Santa" brought them a gift? Or that he even exists? I am not going to get into the traditions or history of Christmas, santa or the other stuff but what I am going to say is this..... when you tell your child a lie, with good or bad intentions, it is still a lie and you are still a liar. 

When your child then lies to you, not that it is okay because any lie is wrong, then maybe you are the failed example you were supposed to be. That one father told his son to deceive & lie to his own mother. Hmph!! That is disturbing!

Remember, if you tell your child there is a "tooth fairy" then you are a liar and a foul example of what that child deserves. 

If you tell your child there is a santa, an easter bunny, great pumpkin or any of the other fictional depraved characters that the world worships, then you are a liar and a foul representation of a parent. 

I know I know, I don't have any children. That doesn't change the fact that if you lie then you are a liar and if GOD Almighty blesses you with a child that you are supposed to be a good, pleasing & acceptable example to that child! 

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Is There A Key To True Happiness...

7/30/2022

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Is there a key to true happiness?

We live in a time where bitterness, boredom, misery, anger, depression and many other forms of unhappiness, angst, confusion & delusions are running rampant. Is there some basic principle which determines success in finding happiness?

The Book of Psalms, with its very first psalm, shares with us a key principle that can ensure true happiness if we allow it to. Notice the very first word of the first psalm, "Blessed."

The word in Hebrew denotes the idea of "happiness"

The actual force of the Hebrew could be translated "O how very happy is the man..."

Therefore this psalm describes "The Truly Happy Man"

Let's look at Psalm 1. The Blessedness of the Righteous man... 

In Psalm 1:1-2 we are told of his character. 

"Walks not in the counsel of the ungodly" ~ He does not take their counsel on how to live, talk, act etc. He does not follow the advice of those who are sinful. Nor does he follow behind those who are doing ungodly works in Jesus' Name.

"Nor stands in the path of sinners" ~ He does not linger where sinners are known to go. For the temptation to go with them would be great. But this does not say that he doesn't have contact or fellowship with them. Note that he does not go with them or go to where they gather to do their sins but rather lead them elsewhere to gather and fellowship... how else would we be the example in Word, Deed & Action.

"Nor sits in the seat of the scornful" ~ He does not join himself with those who ridicule & mock those trying to do right, which they often do to fortify their conduct and defend their own ungodly actions.

This verse may be taken to describe the journey one takes into sin:

First, one going along with a crowd.

Then, taking a stand with the crowd.

Finally, reaching a point where sinning is not enough and mockery is added.

"His delight is in the law of the Lord" ~ "the law" is literally translated into "The Way". The source of his Joy & Happiness is The Way of GOD Almighty! It is truly his "delight" (Psalm 119:16,24,35,47,70, 77,92,174 & Jeremiah 15:16-17). He preferred it over the counsel of the ungodly!

Therefore, "in His law (or His Way) he meditates day and night" ~ The word meditate means to "moan, hum, utter, speak, muse". The picture is one of a man reading and re-reading half aloud to himself, another word might be "ponder."

This he does with GOD'S Word "day & night", not implying a monk-like existence, but a focused, coordinated and determined interest which goes beyond a casual acquaintance, or thoughts & feelings alone. What it means is that this is something he does habitually setting apart portions of each day and that he does both day and night.

In Psalm 1:3 we are told of the happy man's prosperity. 

"He shall be like a tree" ~ This figure of speech is often used in Scripture to describe the righteous (Psalm 92:12-15 & Jeremiah 17:5-8). It had special significance to those living in arid climates like Palestine.

"Planted by rivers of water" ~ A picture describing a person whose life is rooted in GOD'S Word, from which one receives constant nourishment!

"That brings forth fruit in its season" ~ Depicting a life which yields something worthwhile, providing Blessings to himself and others.

"Whose leaf also shall not wither" ~ A tree with roots near a river is not likely to be affected in times of drought, so adverse conditions do not affect the fruitfulness of one whose strength comes from GOD'S Word!

"Whatever he does shall prosper" ~ This is a general rule, exceptions may occur for reasons which only GOD knows, but a life of piety will generally be Blessed by HIS GoOD GOoD Blessings, prosperity. 

Prosperity not being measured by monetary wealth, but Spiritual & godly wealth. Amen!

Such is the character & prosperity of the righteous man; he is truly happy and a blessing to others because he abides in the Word of GOD. He also becomes a monument to GOD'S Faithfulness and the value of living by HIS Word and walking in The Way.

But wait...... what of those who do not delight in the Word of GOD? Those who do not receive the nourishment found in GOD'S Word? This answer is found in Psalm 1:4-5, the condition of the unrighteous. 

The phrase "The ungodly are not so" is more emphatic in the Hebrew, it literally says, "Not so, are the ungodly!"

Emphasizing that the wicked are not like the righteous!

The contrast as illustrated by the Psalmist does not even describe them as withering trees, but rather as "chaff which the wind drives away", alluding to chaff blown away from wheat as it is tossed into the air. 

The illustration describes a bleak existence. Their life is one of futility, ending in eternal separation from GOD. The "ungodly" chaff among the wheat, this is not the lost souls, but those within The Church who are being led by thoughts & feelings, misinterpreting The Scriptures, acting on bitterness & ego, stepping outside of The Will of GOD, following behind others (including hirelings/pastors/etc) and those who are just wolves in sheeps clothing. 

Their life is of no substantial value, either to be blown away and not found or to be burned (Matthew 3:12). 

"The ungodly shall not stand in the judgment" ~ I understand this may be a Hebrew idiom and mean that the wicked "shall not be able to maintain himself" (for example - obliged to sit or fall down in shame when convicted of their guilt). 

"Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous" ~ For example - in all places where the righteous assemble, but especially, in the last day, when the righteous shall be gathered together to receive their reward and shall be assembled together in Heaven, where the sinner has no place!

The psalm concerning the truly happy man (Psalm 1) ends with a final contrast between two different & distinct "Ways" in Psalm 1:6.

"The Way" of the Righteous ~ The LORD knows "The Way" of the righteous. The word "knows" suggests interest in, and care for, the person known. One could say that GOD himself goes with such a person throughout his or her life!

The way of the ungodly ~ The way of the ungodly person "shall perish". His path becomes less defined until it loses itself, kinda like a trail that leads into a swamp. We understand this for the lost but for those (ungodly) who claim JESUS The CHRIST, those words will be heard, "Depart from ME" 

Is not the end described for the ungodly a true description of those who go through life bored, bitter, angry, miserable, depressed, or otherwise unhappy? Their lives are listless, with no sense of purpose or direction, gradually unraveling. While others are busy trying to be heard, instead of allowing The LORD to speak through them. 

Why is this so? Because they heed the counsel of the ungodly! 

If we desire to be truly happy, standing strong like well-nourished trees, bearing fruit at all times, with The LORD always at our side, then the key is to delight & meditate in the Word of The LORD & not heed the counsel of the ungodly!

In whose counsel do you delight?

That which is found in GOD'S Way, or that provided by this world? 

If you seek true happiness, let The LORD be your counselor, and HIS Way your guide! Allow HIM to lead your steps. 

​Stop following others and allow HIM to lead you. 

Be Blessed.
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Come Out and Be Separate...

7/26/2022

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The Apostle Paul issues a challenging call when he tells us to "come out" and to "be separate", just as GOD Almighty did through HIS Prophet Isaiah. And this is a verse that is often used to segregate many from their own families & social circles, when it is not meant to.

In 2 Corinthians 6:17, when Paul says, "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you.", he is quoting from Isaiah 52:11 ~ Depart ye, depart ye, go ye out from thence, touch no unclean thing; go ye out of the midst of her; be ye clean, that bear the vessels of the Lord..

These are GOD'S plain instructions to HIS People concerning separation from evil. Christians are not to stay in the midst of it, as part of it, taking part of it. Our "call" is to come out of the wickedness and ignorance that held us in bondage.

The unclean thing in this verse is primarily the heathen world, but it also applies to any form of evil, whether commercial, social or religious. It is often very hard for Christians to sever ties that have existed for years in order to be obedient to the Word of GOD.

And it seems that GOD had anticipated such a difficulty in 2 Corinthians 6:18, because in verse 17 HE says “I will receive you,” and then HE adds, “I will be a Father to you, and you shall be My sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty.”

Now verse 18 speaks multitudes to me. Let me explain why....

While I was in the midst of the evil, in & of this world, a lot of my issues began before I was even born when my father took his own life. Every boy needs a father. Every girl needs a mother. Of course, children need both a mother and a father, but the point is that by mine not being in my life there was a void there.

But GOD..... oh them two words.... But GOD!! HE said that HE will be a FATHER to me and that I shall be HIS son! Oh Happy Day! When I realized that I had a Father and that HE Loved me more than any earthly father or man ever could, it was life changing! Literally.

Thank YOU, FATHER, for becoming the driving force in, with & through my life. Thank YOU!

The compensation for standing with The CHRIST outside the camp of evil is to know Fellowship with The FATHER in a new and intimate way.

Paul is not saying that Believers should have no contact at all with unbelievers, because then Christians would have to leave this world and then how are we to be salt & light to the world? What Paul is saying, is that believers are not to participate in the strongholds, vices, addictions, ways and sins of the unbelievers, to not be "of this world" just because we are in it.

Please do not allow anyone to keep you from being a positive Light in the lives of others who truly are in need of Life, and Life more abundantly. Amen.
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Be Thankful In Everything... That Means EVERYTHING!

7/25/2022

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How can we possibly be thankful "in everything"?

All things work together for good if we Love GOD and respond to HIS Call - Romans 8:28

Loving GOD means obedience to HIS Will – 1John 5:3 – So responding to HIS Call means obeying HIS Gospel.

We can therefore Glory in tribulation – Romans 5:3-5. Knowing that it produces character which in turn produces Hope

We can rejoice in persecution – Matthew 5:10-12. Knowing that the Kingdom of Heaven is ours.

We can rejoice in trials – James 1:2-3. Knowing that trials produce patience and that patience produces perfection and completeness, with which comes maturity.
 
How else can we be thankful in everything?

By expressing our thanks in every prayer. Philippians 4:6 says, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God”

Every time you pray, thank GOD for something, for anything, for everything!
 
Thankfulness is 'key'...

To overcoming anxiety - Philippians 4:6 ~ Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

To obtaining the Peace of GOD which surpasses all understanding- Philippians 4:7 ~ and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

To pray without ceasing, and to rejoicing always ~ 1Thessalonians 5:16-18. When we give thanks in everything, we will pray without ceasing! When we pray without ceasing, we will rejoice always!

Thankfulness in everything - praying without ceasing - rejoicing always!
 
If we desire to have the Peace which passes understanding, that Joy which is inexpressible (1Peter 1:8), then we need to develop the attitude of gratitude, being Thankful in everything!

We are to have the 'attitude of gratitude', being Thankful for what GOD has done for us ~ Colossians 1:12-14.

Abounding in Thanksgiving ~ Colossians 2:7

And as a part of the "garment" we are to put on ~ Colossians 3:12-15, where it says, “12 Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; 13 bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do. 14 But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection. 15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful.”

The ‘attitude of gratitude’ is a complement to our prayers (Colossians 4:2 & 1Timothy 2:1).

Ingratitude, which is included among other sins, not only displeases GOD but would also be common in those "perilous times" that are spoken of in 2Timothy 3:1-5.

Romans 1:18-21 says, “18 For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, {{Now by truth, Paul means all the light that is left in man since the fall of man, not as though they being led in this manner were able to come into favor with God, but that their own reason might condemn them of wickedness both against God and against man.}} 19 because what may be known of God is manifest in them, for God has shown it to them. 20 For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse, 21 because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened.”

So, the wrath of GOD will be revealed against those who are unthankful. It is GOD'S Will that we 'rejoice always' and that we 'pray without ceasing' ~ 1Thessalonians 5:16-18, where we learn that it also GOD'S Will that we 'give thanks in everything'.

Not only are we to be thankful in everything, but for everything!
 
Ephesians 5:20-21 tell us, “giving thanks always for all things to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus The Christ, 21 submitting to one another in the fear of God.”!
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